I Wouldn't Change It For The World (Janto)

Chapter 19 -Forget-me-not

Ianto's POV -
I woke up searching the room for ... Something ... I had no idea what but it felt like something was missing, but what? I sat up and felt a sharp pain shoot through my body, I looked at my stomach and saw the gash going across the centre, I then remembered how Owen and Gwen made me their beating bag yesterday, but How did I get home? Last I remember I was sitting in the corner of the bay out of the sight of the cameras and then ... Nothing. I got up out of bed and walked towards my wardrobe, I set out one of suits Jack bought me, I smiled at the memory of Jack turning up be my doorstep holding a suit.

I went into the bathroom to have shower, once I finished I began to dress the wounds around my body, I was still wondering how I got back to my apartment! Once I finished getting dressed I began to exit my small apartment, I reached into my key bowl to pick up my keys, and that's when I saw it ... "Jack?" I screamed "Jack?" My heart felt like it was about to leap out of my chest, the key I got cut for Jack was back in my apartment! At that moment it hit me, I fell to the floor crying, Jack was back, and he didn't want anything to do with me! Gwen and Owen were right, I was just his fuck-buddy!

I took deep breaths trying to prevent any further tears from falling down my face, i felt anger build inside of me, I threw the key across the apartment, Jack never did love me, he never even cared about me, he always put everyone else first, I was just a game to him.
I stood up and grabbed my keys and slowly exited the apartment I knew what I had to do, my life was all a lie, my family hated to see me, Jack didn't even care about my existence and team Torchwood would even be effected if I was dead!

A/N: Suicidal thoughts and A possible attempt will occur in the rest of this chapter

As I walked into Torchwood I felt eyes on me, I looked over at Gwen and Owen and they began to laugh silently Tosh looked like she was about to cry, her mouth opened slightly but I shook me head letting her know that I already knew she couldn't of done anything with putting herself in danger as well. I gave everyone their coffee and made my way into Jack's office, I sat in his chair and slowly smiled at the memories I had with Jack, and then I remembered again,
Jack didn't care about me, he never even loved me. I got up and quickly left the office where all of Jack's lies had taken place!

As the day continued I was analysing everything Jack ever said to me, all was a lie to get himself fucked, I remembered all the times Jack had to choose me or Gwen, he always choose Gwen! Tosh touched my shoulder "hey, we are all going to go home now" I nodded my head, "I have a few things I need to do, I'll lock up" I faked a smile and Tosh returned with a brighter happier smile and walked away, as everyone left I felt a tear stream down my face.

I watched the CCTV as I saw all three of them laughing, probably at me, at my pathetic little life. I sat in the hub for an hour just crying, I then took a deep breath and made my way to the lift, "Goodbye" I said to no one as the lift rose slowly. Once I reached the surface I walked towards the roof of a building which Jack took me on one of our 'dates'. I stood on the edge allowing the soft breeze to touch my face, I took a deep breath and closed my eyes preparing myself to step off.

Jack POV -
I walked around the bay a few times trying to think about what I should do to Owen and Gwen, I sighed I lifted my head up, that's when I saw him, Ianto my Ianto on the edge of the roof of a building I took him to. I sprinted into the building and ran up the stairs, my heart felt like it was going to stop if I didn't stop him! I reached the roof and opened the door slowly not wanting to startle Ianto making him fall off the edge, I slowly walked towards him not wanting to give away my presence! Ianto took a step forward and his body slowly fell "IANTO!" I screamed as I grabbed his arm, I used all the strength in my body to keep him from falling!

"Ianto hold on okay" I screamed trying to lift his body up, I felt his arm slowly slide down further "Jack, just let go" Ianto cried trying to pull his hand away from mine "NEVER" I screamed, Ianto's arm slid even more, I caught his hand creating a stronger grip, I used all the strength I had a pulled Ianto torso up onto the roof, I then lifted the rest of his body up onto the ledge, I fell backwards with Ianto on top of me. I felt tears going down my face as I look in Ianto's empty eyes, I took a deep breath and threw my head back against the floor of the roof. Ianto stood up off the floor and began to walk towards the edge once again, I grabbed him and threw his body under mine. "WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING, YOU COULD HAVE DIED!" I screamed while pinning Ianto down onto the floor, Ianto whispered "like you would care" my heart felt like it had just been ripped in two "what?" I whispered back no sure what to say "YOU LEFT AND NEVER CAME BACK! EVERYONE WAS RIGHT YOU NEVER CARED ABOUT-" I planted my lips on Ianto's trying to show him all the compassion I could harness, I placed my head against his cheek, my eyes shut I continued to kiss him. I pulled away slowly "Ianto you're the only person I care about" I said whilst making circles with my finger against his cheek. Ianto burst into tears, he pulled my body closer to his making sure I was real, "why did you leave?" "I had to, to protect you, John was going to" I swallowed the words knowing they will me make me even more emotional then I already was, Ianto just nodded.

"I'm so sorry Ianto" I whispered against his cheek as I kissed him, I interlaced my fingers with his and laid on my back just looking at the stars with Ianto by my side. I closed my eyes remembering of how broken Ianto was because of me ... Because I left "Don't do that" Ianto said holding my hand tighter, "do what?" I asked the look he gave me suggested he knew exactly what I was doing which made me feel slightly happier, after everything I put him through Ianto Jones will still know me! I pushed myself up and looked at Ianto, I leant towards him and kissed him once again I couldn't stop the smile coming across my face when I heard Ianto whisper "I love you".

Ianto hand slowly made their way from my shoulders to my hand, fear struck over me when I felt Ianto hand against my skin where my vortex manipulator should be. I stopped kissing Ianto and looked down at my wrist ... SHIT... I looked over the edge of the roof and saw my vortex manipulator laying on the floor far below "Ianto what's the time!" I asked with urgency, Ianto pulled out his phone and his following words caused a tear to form in my eye "it's 21:30" I started looking around panicking "Ianto you need to get out of here! NOW" I saw John step out of the van and make his way into the building. I looked for a way to get Ianto to safety but there was none! John enter the roof with a smirk across his face.

A/N Sorry this has taken so long to write, I have finished my mocks so I should be getting back to my normal pattern, I'll realise two new chapters next week as I will be away on the weekend
Clare xoxo