It's starting again...
You still have that same fucking effect one me as you did when we first met over a year ago.
Today, I honestly wanted to kill myself, and urge that I haven't felt in almost a year.
You then told me that you were coming to youth, which is something you never did the entire time we weren't talking. I gotta say, when I found out you were coming, I got super nervous, because we hadn't spoken one-on-one for months.
By the end of those 2 hours at youth, a few bad things had happened that had nothing to do with you, but I honestly could say that I'm... not happy, but maybe "satisfied"or "content" enough with being able to see and talk to you, that I no longer have that urge tonight.
I hope you know that you had the power to keep a life on this planet tonight, and you did it just by simply making me smile with your voice, your smile, and your hug.
You cheered me up enough so that I could see more positives than negatives of living, so thank you. Thank you so fucking much for keeping me alive for another night.
