I hate feeling like this so fucking much...
So I have a thing (ish) with this one guy that I see every day... but we barely take unless in person. I took his virginity... and I know he likes me a lot. But I'm terrified of him asking me to be his girlfriend. Wanna know why? Because I like someone else. Like as in the other L word that I hate using so much. Only problem is, the dude lives at least 2 hours away, I only see him about 4 times a year, and he said he would never date me... only because of the distance and previous problems, but honestly it hurts so much. The guy doesn't realize how much I really like him... I can't even date someone else without fucking it up because of my feelings for this guy. I just wish he'd understand how much I actually like him and that I would never do anything to hurt him...
