Annnnnd there go the feelings again... and I thought I was getting so much better, too. Not giving a shit about whether we talk or not, not falling at your feet for anything you want... guess I was just kidding myself. I dropped everything to see you and it ended with me being upset... not over something you did, just over my stupid fucking jealousy. Like seriously, who gets upset over someone they don't even have? About something they already knew about? Apparently me. Fuck, I just want to kiss you and cuddle you... I act like you're just a fuck that I want but honestly I'm still madly in love with you and I can't get rid of it no matter how much I want to. Like, I try not to be too clingy, I don't text you very often, I don't try to talk to you constantly, but I'm still annoying, aren't I? You probably wish we never met... I mean, it would have been a hell of a lot easier on you these past couple years with one less girl going after you, right? I wish I could say goodbye now, but it's gonna be too damn hard for me, so for now, I'll just do what I can to cope. Put on the front that I usually do and pretend that everything's okay, when in reality, I want to break down in front of you so that you know how much you mean to me.
