Fuck I love you so goddamn much but I'm too scared to do anything about it. You're a player and a fuckboy but I fucking love you, I don't know what to do anymore, I can't tell you that though, you've got about 20 girls so why would my feelings matter? Why would you care about how I feel about you? I love you and I want to hug you and kiss you and make you smile everytime I see you but I can't because you barely tolerate me... Please don't leave me, I don't think I could handle that again. I wouldn't be able to deal with not being able to talk to you, even if we still don't talk often. At least I can hear your voice once in a while, right? I guess that's better than not at all. At least I get a rare hug here or there, and that's better than nothing, right? I just wish that we could go back to the way we used to be... even if it did hurt me, I'm stronger now and it would be even better than what we've got. I love you so fucking much, I just wish I could make you understand...
