A Popularity Project Gone Wrong

Chapter Eighteen

I didn't even want to go to school the next morning but my Rosalie literally dragged me inside of her van and drove to me school. I blew my breath as I watched Rosalie's manicured fingers drive the sterring wheel as we ride to my school building. This was so not fair, my parents should have been cool enough to let me stay home. Yesterday, I skipped dinner and I never came back downstairs because of the tradegy yesterday, it was so overwhelming. 

I found that Junie had some disease that killed her, I found out that Jer's dad commited suicide, and I was a mess. It was hard to believe that something good happened that day. Jeremy and I kissed and we both realized we fallen for each other, well at least I did. For all I know, Jeremy could have been crushing on me since the day he met me. 

"What are you thinking about?" Rosalie asked me as she glanced worriedly at me through the rearview mirror. I sighed, I was thinking about the crap that went on yesterday and I hated that she had bring it up. I didn't even want to talk about it. 

"Stuff" I muttered underneath my breath hoping she'll take the fact that I'm still mourning and will leave me alone. She did, and I sighed happily, as I glanced out the window. We were nowhere near the school gates yet and I as I watched the trees, people, and busy cars go by, I think about Junie. Your boyfriend wish is coming true, but your popularity wish nothing but a myth. 

What does she mean myth? Popularity a myth? I closed my eyes and thought about what Jer told me before he kissed me. He said something about that it'll all about being with loved ones and forget popularity. But popularity was something I wanted for a long time and I'm being told that my wish of being popular is a myth and to just forget it? I didn't whether to be ticked off or downright puzzled? 

I closed my eyes harder and thought about what all of this meant. Myth means something false and forget means to not remember so does this mean that popularity isn't real? But how can that be? It was real, with Keith, with Cassidy, with Kimi and the other cheerleaders! It was real, how did this make any sense?! Maybe I'm just overlooking it, maybe Junie meant something else like referring it as to oblivion. In other words, my wish of popularity was never going to happen again.

Yeah, that was it. I looked up at the window again to now see Rosalie driving up to the school gates and smiling at me encouragly through rearview mirror. I smiled back and slipped on my backpack as I hopped out of the car and slammed the door behind me. As she drove off, I waved bye to her and she honked in reply. 

Turning around, I glanced at the school and took a deep breath. I had to face my fears and come back anyway, I could do this. Walking towards the school, I nervously twirled my brown hair that I curled today. Walking up the stairs and opening the loud doors, I file in with several other students as I took some more nervous deep breaths.

As I walked into the building, I saw numerous of students talking and chatting. Realizing that everyone was too chatty to notice me, I briskly walked to my locker happily as the people around me ignored me. I was tired of the bullying because I was too overwhelmed right now over other things. When I finally approached my locker, I threw my bag into it and took out my supplies for school. This day was going to be scary, I could feel it in my bones. 

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Lunch came around and I found myself at the lockers nervously wondering what will happen if I approach the cafeteria. It's not like I was afraid that Cassidy would chew me off or someone call me pimple face. Scratch that, I was afraid it was just so hard to admit even in your thoughts. Sighing, I took a brave step and powerwalked into the cafeteria. 

As I filed in other students, I didn't even order any food because I was way too nervous to eat. Instead, I glanced around the room and smiled happily as I spotted Jer and my friends. Walking towards them, I felt as if my day can suddenly change around and that I didn't have to feel this way at all-