KAITLYN POV
5 months. 5 damn months since we've had a "normal" day together.
"I'm sorry baby. I've got rehearsals."
"Baby I've got an interview"
"Baby I can't today"
He never can and I'm over it. He's sweet he's amazing. He's everything I've ever wanted but he can't be there to hold me which is something I need. I can't do it. He's coming over and I'm telling him. I have so much to tell him.
As I'm thinking there's a loud knock on the door before unlocks it walking in with the key I gave him.
"Hey baby" he says giving me a quick kiss "I can't stay long I have to go record soon"
I laughed dryly "Wow. Why am I not surprised."
He frowned "hey. What's that about?" He goes over to hug me but I push his arms away
"Don't you dare do that right now Harry. Seriously? We haven't had an actual couple date in 5 months and you promised me a movie and popcorn tonight but of course. Once again. Why would I be that lucky?" I was beyond pissed at this point
"Wow. Babe. Where is this coming from. You know I can't handle it"
"Yes you can. You know damn well you can but you choose to say '0kay' to every single thing they ask for you to do" I started to raise my voice. If you were in my shoes. You'd be doing the same exact thing
"Kaitlyn don't pull that shit. I can't help it. Okay? I'm sorry but I say yes because I enjoy doing it. You knew that when you got into this."
"I didn't think 'this is my job' meant 'hey. You're great but I'm gonna spend five minutes with you then leave everyday.' Yeah. Good talk Harry"
"Kaitlyn stop. You're acting like a child about this. You knew. You said you knew."
"Knowing is different from having it be 50 times worse than expected Harry!" I was yelling at this point and to no surprise he started yelling too.
"You knew! You knew damn well don't put this on me! It's not my fault!"
"You can tell them no every once in a while! You could say I have plans!"
He doesn't get it. It won't go through his head what I need. I need him to hold me. I need him to comb my hair and just whisper in my ear about how it will all be okay. That's all I need but he just keeps yelling. I don't even know what's happening anymore I stopped listening. I had to. I couldn't take it. I snapped out of it hearing a glass thrown against the wall and I screamed.
"You aren't even listening are you!"
"Harry stop!"
"No! You started this! You can't handle this! If you can't handle this then go! Leave! Nothing's stopping you!" He screamed at me.
I looked in his eyes and I just couldn't see the Harry I loved in them. No sign of them. And I didn't want that around me.
"You aren't you. At all. I'm leaving. I'm packing my bags. No need to worry about me ruining your career or anything." I whispered close to him making sure he understood. I already had tears streaming down my face and I went upstairs grabbing the closest duffle bag and packing. I heard footsteps and I packed even faster.
"Bab-" I cut him off
"Don't you dare call me that. I'm leaving. I'm doing exactly what you wanted me to."
"I didn't mean that. You know I didn't."
"At the time you did Harry. And you can't fix that. I saw this anger in your eyes that I've never seen before and I hated it. I couldn't handle it. I'm going to my home. Away from you. It won't be much different from my usual."
"No. Baby. Please the fans will see and-"
I was honestly in shock. The fact that I was leaving and he was worried about the fans seeing me.
"You know what Harry?" I whispered moving closer to him and looking at him
"Maybe them seeing me would make it easier on you. That way you won't have to tell them that we finished and they'll do that for you." I bumped past him going downstairs leaving him in shock.
I grabbed my keys and purse going out to car when he comes running out
"Wait, baby. Please no. I'm so sorry."
"You should've considered that before you told me to leave rather you were drunk, mad, or whatever the hell you are but its not my problem. So you go find someone who can and wants to deal with your shit because I'm over it." I shake my head and tears were pouring out of my eyes and I couldn't stop them as I started the car
"Please let me fix this. I was an ass I'm so sorry"
"No Harry. Maybe later but not now. We're done. Go find someone else who's better for you." I bit my cheek and drove away before my heart pulled me back into him.
I drove quickly just sobbing. I just needed him. That's the only reason I was upset. I missed him. I needed his soft voice telling me he loved me and that it was gonna be okay. I needed his big warm arms holding my body as close to his as possible just smelling his cologne to relax. I needed his lips against my forehead just calming me down while he combed my hair. That's all I needed. All I wanted. But he told me to leave. So I did. Do I want to go back? Hell yes. Do I want to just run into him and jump up? Of course. But I can't. I can't do that to myself.
He did this to himself but I just get the backlash of it and it hurts. More than I ever though it possibly could.
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Nothing (A Harry Styles Fan Fic)
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