Late Night Thoughts

Falling

You know you've fell for someone when the thought if them dead, gone, or disappearing breaks your heart and you can physically feel that pain too.

This scenario crossed my head a moment ago:

I imagined my crush he had just texted me, "I love you so much" I had responded with, "I love you so much more" knowing how he has a lighter form of depression a thought crossed my mind. For the past few days hes been turning off his phone or something where my messages don't get delivered.

What if after he sent that he killed himself... or had disappeared to go commit suicide?

When I thought of this my heart immediately shattered and I could feel that pain physically. I almost started sobbing right there at the thought of it.

I had realized before this that I had possibly fallen so hard. But realizing now... not only did I fall completely for him. But I actually love him.

Kids my age (13-14) usually say I love you to people they date but they don't love them. Not like offical real love, thats what I feel with him.

The thought of losing him killed me.

I've fallen for him in a way I never thought I would feel for anyone or would feel for me.

I finally have what I thought I'd never ever have... Love.