Late Night Thoughts

numb

The send you to hospitals to "fix" the pain.

They put you on meds to numb the pain.

They put you down for being down.

They tell you to be happy and it'll all go away.

They tell you, you've changed and they can't stay.

They tell you these things and send you away.

But I was 5 years old and I was a princess.

I was the queen of my tower, and a lover to all.

Then I was 10 years old, waiting to get friends.

Trying to fit in, trying to find a friend, trying.

Then I was 13 years old, and wishing to be dead.

Wishing there words would stop circling my head.

Then I was inches away from death.

Now I'm 15 years old, and it still feels like that day.

I don't remeber that 5 year old girl. I don't remeber that time when I was happy.

I remeber pain.

And they still try to numb it away.