Late Night Thoughts

"Friends"

I think losing a friend is more painful then losing a boy.

Especially we your friend suddenly turns and hurts you.

They take everything and they say stuff and mess with things.

Then suddenly they aren't who you remember, they're gone.

Only, I realized something. She was gone awhile ago.

But I can't find when I lost... Did I even have her...

I miss her, but I shouldn't. Not after what she did.

But when I see her, I hurt. When I see photos of us.

When I remember memories, when I see how she isn't even phased.

I've only ever had one friend who didn't abandon me...

But we only talk when I need someone or vise versa.

I wish I knew why my friends never seem intrested in me...

I wish I knew why I can't keep friends...

I wish I knew why I was always put to the side no matter how far I put myself out there.

I wish I knew why I was so...

lonely...