When Is There Hope For Love

always alone

Mindy's pov.
"Mindy it's time to wake for school sweety."
Looks like another day to get bullied and shut every one out begins "I'm up mom really I am I'll be down in a little bit."
Its always the same for me now go to school do my work ignore everyone and be depressed yup normal. If it were different I might actually talk in school but because there isn't a soul in school that even likes me I am alone and silent. I just wish sometimes that someone would of noticed me or tried to be my friend but it's always been the same thing the same name calling always THE SAME never different. I get out of bed, get dressed, grab a knife to cut myself later, and walk down to my mom, my dad died when I was young mom doesn't talk about him so I don't ask, sit at the table smiling softly to her before I devour my pancakes.
At the bus stop I hide in the shadows waiting for the bus to arrive to take me to school. I watch the others talk to each other and laugh and smile and just be friendly. I let out a soft sigh as the bus arrives I step out of the shadows spooking the others but they quickly recover instantly starting there assault of insults I just try my best to ignore it. "Did you see where she just popped up from?"
"Ya she so stupid and Gothic it's disgusting for me to watch why was she in the shadows in the first place?"
"Probably trying to see if she could make us part of some ritual or something like that."
"Ya your probably right that sounds like something that she would do."

If they would talk to me they'd know but no one tries so no one knows and that's fine with me I didn't want them to talk to me either.
At school it's the same as always I blend in with the shadows and no one talks to me just like it the less contact with the outside world the better. Its going so well until lunch where I have no choice but to have some kind of human contact. As some as the bell to get to lunch rings I book it getting there first to minimize my human contact to get a salad with some chips and tell the lunch lady to have a good day out of courtesy. I go and sit in a corner alone and oblivious to the outside world as I very slowly maul through my salad, as I am eating I don't even notice that someone has sat down across from me until they speak shaking me from my food trance.

Kevin's pov.
I've been watching her for a couple of days now noting everything she does, I don't care what the others say, I want to know as much about her as possible so I made a plan to talk to her at lunch today before I lost my courage like so many times before. At lunch I grab the lunch my mom made me and make my way to the lunch room I hide slightly so I may watch her from a distance she sits in the corner of the room completely alone. which I find a little weird that someone like that would be alone as beautiful as she is. Either way I sit with my group for the first 10-15 minutes of lunch then let them know that I have something important to do before lunch ends. I stand tell a football joke then leave over to where she is sitting hopefully she is as nice as she is pretty. I approach while she doesn't even give off any signs of life pardon the eating and breathing other wise she could be considered dead. I take a deep breath preparing myself then sit down across from her.
"Hi I'm Kevin and you are?"
I give a warm smile with my hand out for a shake.

Mindy's pov.
I look up to see a warm smile with a hand out towards me I don't know what the do so I just stare no ones talked to me the entire year this is such a new experience that I don't know what to do except stare or ignore him and keep eating so I just go back to eating but he I persistent.
"I'm talking to you I would very much like an answer so please be so gracious as to at least tell me your name then I leave if that's what you want."
"Hhhuuuhhh fine if you must know it's Mindy are you happy now will you leave me eat my lunch in peace?"
"Sure sure if you want then that's find but first I'd like to tell you something...."
"And that would be?" I cock an eyebrow at him slightly looking up from my salad
"Id like to know if you are planning anything for after school?"
"Why?"
"Well I was curiuos if you wanted to see a movie with me please?"
I'm at a lose for words no one ever has asked me out what so I say. I know I'll let him go early saying I'm busy
"I'm sorry I'd love to but I'm busy later maybe another time or you know never i'd like never better wouldn't you?"
"No I don't think I can leave you alone forever that's too long"
"Why me why waste your jock time on a loser like me?"
"Its not a waste unless I don't get you on a date with me but since you said no then I guess it would be a waste." He has a sad look on his face like it hurt him to hear me say no it makes me reconsider my answer only slightly but I stand firm on being alone
"If you don't mind I would like to get back to my salad so please be so kind as to leave?"
"Fine but I will be back."
I don't care one bit if you are or not coming back.
I continue my daily routine for last few classes of the day. As I walk in to my last class I see him the one from lunch he looks up and smile I hurry to my seat and ignore him til the bell rings then I rush and get in my bus to the back and sit alone, until he gets on it's looks like I'll have to go through some torture till I get home but he doesn't sit next to me instead he sits with his friends which I find relieving. When it's my stop I rush off the bus and head Home as fast as possible, my mom is waiting for me and gives me a hug as I close the door.
"Hello too mom I'm fine thanks"
"But you are blushing and you are breathing heavy."
"I promise that the breathing is from running home the blush on the other hand is because this boy came up to me at lunch and asked me to watch a movie with him after school"
"What did you tell him honey?"
"I said I was busy after school and that he should leave me alone."
"Oh honey you can't stay alone forever you'll have to find someone eventually."
"I know but I don't think I'm ready for it yet"
"You won't know if you don't at least try"
"Huh fine if he asks again I'll tell him I'll try but for now I'm going to bed"
"Aren't you hungry though sweety"
"No mom thanks anyway"
I head up stairs and go to my room sleeping on my bed