IT'S MAGIC

PART I CHAPTER 10

I go home early to clear out thoughts that horrify and scare me. Damn, just what did I get myself into? As I enter the house, mom sees through me that I have a problem, as she always does, but mostly I’m just being problematic with little and not too serious concerns.

            “What’s with the long face, Kate?” she asks me after I kiss her good afternoon.

            “Nothing, mom. I’m just tired.” I answer. I’m denial, I know! “I’ll go upstairs now, mom.”

            “Okay, sweetie… Rest it off.” and I proceed.

            I slept for almost four hours, so I wake up around nine in the evening, just in time Camille arrives from her university, which is in a city that requires an hour of travelling before you reach it. And now she has just gone to her own room.

            My mind seems to have cleared after I slept, so I can think freely. But not so, I’m not in peace. Well, for tonight, my dad will not be able to come home, because he has an overtime job, as he says over the phone.

            My head leans against the large clear window of my room, and I seem to still want to clear my thoughts. The moon shines brightly at the night sky; the stars are so many that what I do is like stargazing from inside my own room.

            I then remember a tip in a book-for-girls, “Once in a starry night, try tracing the stars and make a pattern to write the name of the special person from far away that you have in your heart. In that way, you may be able to reach him no matter how far he is.” And the thought makes me feel the cold resonation of the pendant against the skin on my chest.

            I hold it out, in a way that I really take it off my head. I hold it towards the sky, the half-moon-shaped golden pendant falling freely but held back by the brass gold necklace I have a grip on. Ron comes in my mind then which makes me smile upon remembering our short moments together back then. Well, who else will this pendant remind me?

            I see it glimmer under the moonlight and then I put it on my desk beside my bed. I see to it that the pendant is a bit thick, but I don’t mind it. As my hands rise, letting the lace loose, I remember my conversation with Camille on Saturday. In which she tells me I should think about my decision with Kevin and Ron. Well, I really don’t know, but right now, I think Ron is what I can freely hold onto, since someone wants me to stay away from Kevin.

            I blow from inside my mouth. Right now I have a quite unclear mind. Maybe I need something fresh… like fresh air!

            I pick the pendant, holding it as I slide the window to the left – open, and I walk into my small terrace. Then the cool evening breeze blows fresh on my face. Then I start to connect the stars to form the name, “RON.” And in my mind, I have questions like: “Where are you now? When will you come back? Do you still remember me?”

            But the brass of the necklace is slippery that it drops, directly to the grass on the ground floor. Oh, no! The pendant! I can’t afford to lose it!

            I immediately rush back into my room, sliding the window back in place, locked, and I run through the stairs – well, mom and Camille were maybe already in their room, since I think they have less to do this night. I slowly sneak out of the house, silently closing the door as I search for my pendant in the grass.

            “Oh, my goodness… You couldn’t be lost.” I say with exasperation.

            But later on, a gleam takes my eyes attention, and there it is, on the damp grass, reflecting moonlight with its metallic quality despite it being gold.