A Part Of My Life

The Dinner Scene.....

Well unexpectedly as u reach its really nerve wrecking cuz u dunno wat to do .....

Should i wait outside ? Or should i go in ? .....

Well with all those questions wondeing in my mind , i finally decided to go in n maybe wait by a table .....

As i entered , my heart broke into pieces as if someone dropped a glass vase on porpose, with force , even knowing that its precious n could never got back together .....

I with a little power left in me walked a few steps to get closer look .....

N there sat Zack with another .....

I mean , how could he be so inhuman .....

The next minute his eyes locked to mine n i run outta there with embarrassment n fear n heart break ......

I hated that he could lie without faking it n i could believe without realising it .....

What a .... What a fool i was , how could i be so foolish .....?

Maybe cuz i was not good enough , or not pretty enough or just plain simple ugly .....

I was imperfect , i hated myself that moment .....

I had soo many thoughts in my mind .....

I didnt know what to do , n so i decided to keep running till my legs could feel weak .....

My heart ached so much that i could think about anything than just killing myself n dieing.....

I've never felt soo neglected that the only moments i could think about was how he looked at me n how he impressed me n made me feel worth floating on clouds of glitter dust .....

But i guess that glitter dust has turned into dark ashes.....

I couldn't take the rejection no more n suddenly fell down on my knees knocking myself to a tree......