A Part Of My Life

P.O.V ~ Jake

I saw her this morning I couldn't help but stare at her ..... how lonely n vulnerable she looked .... I wished that I could stand by her for that minute when she was lost .... I could sense her looking for someone .... and so I tried my best to join the conversation with my pals..... I couldn't get her picture outta my mind .... how perfect she looked despite of her swollen eyes which stung me like knives through my chest .... after all that's how it's supposed to be .....

I couldn't help but look back at her ... and when I did she looked at me .... It was magical .... like I felt so warm with just one glimpse .... I guess she didn't exactly want to see me n so I respected that n continued my conversation ....

I saw her with Emily n how they were talking about what happened ... if only I could ... I wanted to tear that Zack apart .... it felt like he was my arched enemy .... he was just .... how could he do this to my girl .... she was my everything.... I just wished that I could tell her how I feel.....

I saw her throughout class ..... whenever she smiled , it lasted only a few seconds n then she was back to her sad face. ... it upseted me ... I wanted to go n tell her that she was so precious that no one could compare to her heart .....

And then when I saw Zack grab her hand ... my blood started to boil ... like I couldn't control it anymore n so it would happen right away n then suddenly looking at her made me feel calm.... and then I wondered how could I be with her ...... I could hurt her unknowingly n soo I walked as fast as I could straight outta the class making sure nun of them saw me .....

I kept thinking of I could be the right one but maybe someone like me would have to just settle with a bear clan .....

My frndz suddenly laughed after my thought ....

" it's not possible dude .... bear clans .... hahaha ...... I don't think they're beautiful .... but they're hairy for sure ...."

I laughed along with them until I sensed her walk towards my direction .... She had this very sweet scent that I could track for years n decades n never forget .... it was soo beautiful it made me give up my life for her ..... I wanted to .... but then when I thought of bears .... it wasn't that pleasant n soo I walked away listening to their conversation ....

How could this be .... it's not possible he's gotta be lieing ..... his ex wow soo now he's gonna fool her with every girl being his ex .... I just wished if I could just let go of my charm .... I would rip him to peices n feed him to bears .....

I saw her confused in the cafeteria .... I was just wishing that she wouldn't see me .... I really wanted to be there for her but I was glad that Emily did that part .....

I.saw her walk back home .... she was still sad but more confused about the situation I guess .... I couldn't help but stare at her in her room .... she was perfect ... perhaps something more delicate n precious .... her eyes were not only a mystery but they couldn't let me get past them.... Until I had to fall .... i had completely forgotten how heavy i was when i turned into it ....

N so I ran before she could see me .... I stood far but I could still look at her like my presence wasn't bothering her .... I liked it that way .... slowly I watched her sleep .... it was like an oyster closing ..... I knew I'd miss those precious pearls .... just when I heard a loud alarm from my frndz ..... I ran...