Dinah's pov
January
I woke up to another day of school today we didn't have to wear uniforms. So I wouldn't look like someone who works at target . I put on one of my t-shirts with black jeans and some combat boots. I looked at the clock and it read 8:10 . I was late but I didn't panic. I'm usually late and it's not like I'm the only one Normani was to...Normani.. Her perfect skin . Her lips. Brown eyes sent from heaven .. My phone rang loudly bringing me out of my thoughts
Lauren-WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU !
8:15
Was I really thinking Normani that long . I picked up my book bag and headed for the door .
When I reached my homeroom I realized Normani wasn't there .. it was after 8:20 maybe she wasn't coming today..
"Where the hell were you" Lauren asked me with a upset look on .her face "I over slept" I lied .I looked towards the door to see a slightly shorter girl walk through . She had on all black converse and black jeans . Not knowing what she had on top because she had her jacket on. But her hair was in a perfect messy bun. I couldn't help but watch her while she walked to her seat. It was Normani
"Okay take out your books "my teacher yelled across the room "Lauren go to your seat" My teacher shouted. Lauren quickly went over to her Table. She sat right across from Normani. Which meant they had to talk time from time.
We were doing math...not my favorite subject and I didn't really pay attention in class. I just choose not to. i looked over at her table and i could tell she was upset .. or sad . i wasn't sure, she didn't talk to anyone . Her brown eyes looked tired and her eyes were puffy. meaning she cried her eyes out.Justin kept walking over to her and she actually spoke to him ..which made me jealous. I saw both of them leave the class room . I really hope he isn't the reason for her being like this...
Normani's pov
I needed to catch some air being surrounded by all of those people made me feel worst. Every time i stopped focusing on my work i remembered ....remembered everything and it made my stomach hurt. Justin asked me what was wrong . so i took this opportunity to get some air. We were now on the stair case. The most quietest place i knew.. we both sat down
"Whats wrong" he began "you don't have to tell me .. just know i'm always here for you" I felt tears begin to come out my eyes. " I just really... need a hug right now" i said while my voice cracked. He put his arms around me and i just started to cry . I actually felt like someone was their for me . I started to speak " I didn't grow up knowing my mom....or my dad...and she calls randomly...and then she just stops.. she disappears for months... you know and it hurts ..like shit" He looked at me like he knew exactly what i meant "Did you tell her how it is affecting you" "yes ..many times nothing changes"..."well sometimes you have to deal with certain things in live .. just so you can reach better things" i gave him a half smile while i wiped my eyes "thanks .. honestly..we can go now" he gave me another hug "i got you" he whispered.
We made are way back to the class room were my day resumed as usual. I couldn't wait to go home.
When I made it home. I went straight to my room. Turned on the speakers in my room and plugged in my phone. I laid on my bed and started scrolling through Tumblr. I got up and went to the kitchen grabbing a granola bar. I walked up and down my living room . When i was finished eating i went into my room. I now turned my speakers on all the way. What now began to play
I been ignoring this big lump in my throat
I shouldn't be crying, tears were for the weak
The days I'm stronger, know what, so I say
That's something missingWhatever it is, it feels like it's laughing at me through the glass of a two-sided mirror
Whatever it is, it's just sitting there laughing at me
And I just wanna scream...
I was now looking at my self in the mirror .. i mumbled to my self "Don't cry"but of course all of feelings became out of control ...I began to cry.. I was angry...sad and tired
What now? I just can't figure it out
What now? I guess I'll just wait it out
I sat in the corner of my room , knees to my face , I kept listening to the song play in the back ground
Later in the night i decided to text Ally and tell her everything
Ally-I WILL BE TALKING TO YOU TOMORROW!
AN-yes... i know . :( things will get better
