*knock* Knock*
"Normani your going to be late for school"my aunt yelled through the locked door. I looked around my room and I buried my face into my pillow. I still had a massive head ache from last light and hangover was starting to kick in. "NORMANI KOREDI" my aunt said once again .."I'm up" I yelled back with all my energy "you have 10 minutes and then I'm leaving you" she shouted . I looked at my phone and saw all the miss calls and texts messages from Dinah and Camilla and Ally...My mind instanly began to think about Dinah ...I felt tears starting to form .. I cleared all the messages. I got up and looked at my reflection in the mirror... Make the best of it right...bullshit I laughed to my self. My eyes were puffy..and I looked like crap .. I quickly brushed my teeth and put my hair in a messy bun .. I took a quick shower. I put on a pair of joggers and a white t-shirt with a pair of Rosshes,I grabbed my black sunglasses, got my book bag and I went downstairs.
"Did you sleep well..." My aunt asked "you look like you've bin - " I cut her off "can we just go ..I don't wanna talk about it" I mumbled "okay "my aunt picked up her keys and we walked out the door "I have to speak with your principal today"..she began speaking "oh...cool"I looked out the window "have you spoken to your uncle for the week " she asked "yep..." I mumbled plugging in one of my ear buds "how is he" she kept her eyes on the road " I don't know"..she sighed .
We pulled up to the school and of course I was late. "Okay I want you to remain calm..we are going to have a civilized conversation. I was actually confused .. but I didn't ask. We walked into the school. I noticed Ally and Camilla they both waved at me but I just kept my head down. We walked into the principals office "Good morning" the older man greeted me and my aunt . They both spoke for a while..I wasn't paying attention "so Normani..how are you" I saw the guidance consular in the corner taking notes "I'm perfectly fine " I put on a fake smile "are you lieing" he continued to speak "are you lieing" I spoke back "..okay how are your wrist ...do you still cut...what about your drinking.." I looked down to my uncovered arms and I quickly crossed them "it's None of your business.."I began to get upset "Normani we are trying to help you... "My aunt began to speak "I don't want help okay. I don't need help I want to be left alone" I felt tears running down my face "okay Normani...has anyone else hurt you or touched you inappropriately in the past few months" I shook my head .. " Are you positive" I felt my head throbbing. I wanted this to be over "Are you drunk...or -" I cut him off "Can I leave" I got up holding my book bag "leave the bag the older man said " why I need my books" I looked at my aunt . she just nodded "we will bring it back "..I dropped it on my chair..still knowing what I had in it..
I made my way down the empty hall... I saw a dark blonde girl. At her locker I instantly knew who it was.. I walked past. putting my head down. I felt a sharp pain in my stomach but it didn't stop me. .. "Normani wait" I tried not to look back "what" I contiued to look down and turned around. I fixed the sun glasses on my face "is everything okay" she scratched the back of her neck"yeah everything is fine my girlfriend cheated on me with my aunt's assistant , my aunt is about to find out I'm cutting and drinking again...,I have a massive head ache, I look like crap ,I feel like breaking down right now,and I want a hug..life is great...just perfect" I fake smiled....The dark blonded hair girl walked up to me and wrapped her arms around my waist . I smelt her strawberry shampoo hair and her perfume. I couldn't help but hug her back. "Dinah..."I whispered trying to let go "no...not yet" she mumbled back... " I am sorry.. I'm sorry for lieing for breaking the promise, I know you're hurting and it's because of me. I'm selfish and a lier , I'm a bitch. I played with your emotions , and I did the un forgivable. Normani when I say I love you I mean it." We were both facing each other now "..I know you have bin hurt a lot in the past..and probably by me saying something like I'm not them won't mean anything..but In a way I am... But what makes me different is that I'm here apologizing giving my all too you ...I just need one more chance" I looked in her eyes seeing a tear drop leaving a wet trail on her Carmel skin.... "Pick me up at eight tonight" I wiped her cheek ..giving her a half smile .. "I have to go "
I quickly walked away entering my history class .. my teacher nodded her head and pointed to my seat. I saw Camila sitting in the seat next to mine .i sat down "Are you okay" she whispered "yeah I'm fine" I tapped the desk .."Okay talk to the person next to you about this chapter we have just read" the shorter girl quickly moved closer to me "I kinda know what happened not full details ..but Dinah is an Asswhole and doesn't deserve you....but you didn't have to go a do that again.." she furrowed her eye brows . "Did what..." I removed my sunglasses. Placing them on the desk "you went to a outrageous party last night ..and your hanging out with Bianca and them again .... Did you..you know sniff the stuff.."she played with her hands. "...maybe" I looked around putting my sunglasses back on "Normani..No that's bad for you" she mumbled "I don't need anymore lecturing on my bad decisions" "Normani Kordei the office wants you" the older woman in the front of the room spoke "if I don't text you.. let's say around 7 ..tell Dinah I can't make it" Camila nodded her head..She looked worried but I gave her a reassuring look that I'll be fine.. but I didn't even know if I was....
"We have to go to the hospital" my aunt picked up my bag and hers and we entered the car. It was very quiet for a few minutes "where were you last night" she started to speak "sleeping" I mumbled "oh 'really because apparently your talking to Bianca again and she couldn't even speak when she got home. And their was a big party every one was at it even you.."she kept her eyes on the road. "You know it's really not that serious...I don't understand why I can't just go home and sleep" I looked out the window.
My day consisted of needles and questions and medication.... I just couldn't wait to get home.. when I finally did I ran up to my room and took a shower. I texted Camilla letting her know I was okay . I looked at my phone.
Fuckboy Dj- Still on for tonight?
7:50
Normani-yeah.. text me when your outside
7:54
I placed the device on my night stand. I looked up at my ceiling. My chest felt heavy...I made a lot of stupid decision..I thought to myself...
*phone buzzed*
Fuckboy Dj-I'm outside.
8:50
I picked up my bag and keys and walked through out the door. I looked out to see if my aunt was around but she wasn't .I quickly ran out the door. I made my way into the car.
"Well where are we going" I played with my fingers. "The beach" she smiled "my hair..."I mumbled. "Really are a princess" she looked at me. "It's true" I pointed at the road making her look back at it. We finally reached our destination. Dinah parked this car. We both steeped out . I took in a deep breath, feeling all the fresh air felt nice. We both started to walk. Towards the beach. "I love this place especially at night" she looked up "really..why" I looked at her "because you can just think ..you look at the ocean and it calms you..when I was younger and things got rough I came here .."she looked down and smiled at me. " I looked down trying to hide my blush. We came up to a spot where a blanket and a basket was placed. The hazel eyed girl took my hand and we ran over to the blanket. "Sit"she sat down smiling. "You did this" I followed her actions. "Only for you" she pulled out some sandwiches and my favorite fruit. "Ooo strawberry " I looked at the perfectly dark pink fruit. Dinah started to laugh. I took the strawberry out of her hand and we ate. When we were done we both laid down. Keeping a good amount of distance
"Are you okay " the hazel eyed girl said . "If I said yes I would be lying." I mumbled. "Why aren't you" she whispered turning her head to me "my life is falling apart..faster day by day"l looked up at the sky. "I know ...you've struggled with Alcohol and Cutting ..also your mom or dad not being in your life..but -" I cut her off "I'm not looking for sympathy , things happen right?"
I mumbled .."yes things do but your going through something much more.. I can see it..their is a very defensive side to you...Arin?" The name rang through my ears but she was wrong. Dead wrong...
I ran down the steps,with a empty glass in my hand. I entered the kitchen ,where a man with low cut hair and nothing but boxers on Sat in the middle of the quiet room. He was older way older. "I'll get it for you" he quickly got up and got the soda out of the fridge. He took it back to his seat. I watched. "Want it?"he mumbled.I nodded my head. The older man smirked "sit on my lap princess.." I did as I was told. He placed the drink on the table next to him. He mumbled something into my left air. I felt a hand go up my shirt touching my developing breast . "Don't say anything" he mumbled. His other hand began to make his way under my pants.. "get up"he spoke softly. I did as I was told. The older man pulled his pants down and mine. He made me sit back down on his bare skin.... I let out a loud gasp of pain. I heard footsteps and he quickly picked me up and put my clothes back on and his...
