Unlikely love (Phan)

Is Phil Okay?

-PHIL POV-

flashback

"Mike?" I can't find him anywhere. I search through his apartment.
"Mike"
"Help" I heard a muffled voice say.
"Mike? Mike where are you?" I try to open the bathroom door. Its locked.
"Mike are you okay?" I hear soft whimpers. I push my self against the door until it opens. I find Mike on the floor covered in blood. Huge cuts cover his stomach. I fall to my knees next to my best friend. I grab his hand.
"Mike you can't leave me" I say as tears run down my cheeks. He looks at me with his green eyes and he takes his last breath.
End of flashback

I lay on my bed crying. My best friend left me 11 years ago to suicide and I'm still broken from it. I feel like it was my fault. I wasn't there enough for him. My mom told me it wasn't my fault but I still feel like it is. I try to stop crying I don't want to see me I don't want Dan to know my past. He can't. He would think I'm a freak.

Flashback (TRIGGER WARNING)
I run into my room and throw myself on the bed. Why can't I be a normal 15 year old. I grab my razor blade. I drag it across my skin. Once, twice, until there are 14 across my wrist. I let it bleed knowing I deserve the pain. I put on a long sleeve shirt to cover them. Nobody can know my pain.
End of flash back

Dan walks in my room.
"Hey Phil... Are you okay?" He says worried.
"Yea I'm fine just watched a sad video on tumblr"
"I know how that is" he smiles at me he walks over he wipes away a stray tear from my cheek. He cups my cheeks and pecks my lips. He walks out without another word. Thank god he is gone. I don't know if I can hide this from him for forever he will find out sometime because I know I will relapse sometime. I hug my lion and lay on my side and try to sleep. After about half an hour I feel a warm body snuggle up next to me. He wraps his arms around me. I feel secure like nothing can hurt me then. He kisses my head. I turn my head to smile at him.

"Go to sleep my darling kitten"
I close my eyes. He keeps me alive. I wouldn't have been dead years before if it wasn't for my Dan. He changed me for the best even though he doesn't know that. He can never know the old me. I love him. He is mine.
I whisper to him

"I love you Daniel James Howell"
"I love you Philip Michael Lester"

My eyes close and I fall asleep in the love of my life's arms.

Hope you like my update. I think this is one of my best chapters. I wanted to add some back story.