The Uncoupled Roses

Chapter 3

He walks in. ( drum rolls, more like heart pounds)

"Sam, morning!"

"Good morning Jake! Hope you've done the exercises!" I say.

"I have but I'm not sure if there are correct!" He says.

"Leave that to me!" I say.

Then I go through his work, I realize that he is checking for my expressions, I'm about to pass out because I can't believe he is looking at me.

"You look so cute when you do that!" He says.

I wish I could record that.

"Huh? What?"

"You know the way you contract you eyes a lil bit while focusing!" He says.

My heart's about to come out I swear! He noticed a small thing like that, about me, no one has every done that before!

"Uhh... thanks!" I say because I can't think of anything else, I can't think of anyyyyyy thing! Kill me please!

He smiles, so adorably I could kiss him!

Then we start talking, about other things, such as my favorite singer, my favorite color, where I live, etc etc and he tells me more about him, and those words are now carved in my mind, permanently.

Time flys by soooooo fast when I'm with him. Sooo fast...
We head to our class, first bench!!

He asks me if he can take the seat beside me.

Damn, you asking?

I nod smiling.

He sits, smiles. If he keeps on doing these bewitching cute things I swear I'll soon be needing a pace maker. But I'm too scared and inexperienced to show my emotions to him.

Several thoughts trigger my mind, some of them being, "why me?" , "why so suddenly?", and mostly importantly "am I dreaming?" My mind seizes to work properly.
Subconscious: like you ever did.

"Sam I am not disturbing you, am I?" He says.
I pause, for a bit, that feels like eternity, I can't process all of this, I'm so overwhelmed I swear.
"No, Jake, of course not." I say.

He was there beside me the entire day, I can't believe we share the same oxygen, i can't believe that he is just a few centimetres away.

Is this a dream? I hope it's not a dream.

"Define love." I hear a bold voice. Our English teacher was asking us. I barely heard him, I was day dreaming, wishing that all that was happening wasn't a dream.

"Sam, would you like to tell me?"

I stood up and said , "Love is a fire sir, it is heart warming at times, if you're too far away, it feels cold, you're too near or too deep, you drown in that fire."

"Drowning in fire!" He smiled and he says
"Jake you tell me!"

I don't know for some reason, my body froze, It was like he was asking me, I was even more nervous this time.

"Sir, I don't know. Love is a waste of time. I don't believe in love." He says.

My heart crumbles, shatters into a million pieces if that's what they say. It sinks, literally.

Silly! You're so silly you started imagining yourself with him. How ridiculous. He would never fall for you in a million years.

A series of emotions including disappointment, sadness and emptiness.
I feel so embarrassed, honestly, my fire would be merely a way of passing his time, that too a waste of time. I'm so silly. I don't have the guts to look at him.

After our classes were over, all I wanted was to get up and run as fast as I could, run away from him, before his eyes capture my heart, like always.

Then i hear him say, "Fire, eh?" In a semi- sarcastic way.

And well, I could feel it, the fire of anticipation inside me reducing to dull, grey, worthless ashes.