Forbidden Love

6. That's What She Wants ✔️

Lily's POV

After the breakfast I went back to Chris' room. I couldn't help but notice that ever since this thing with his mom happened I couldn't bring myself to call him names like jerk, or douchebag, or bastard.

Last night and this morning I was so preoccupied by looking at Chris and holding him that I didn't pay much attention to the room he grew up in. The walls were a cold grey and the furniture and the bed were mostly black. 'Pretty cold for a child.' I thought to myself.

But one thing got my eyes, the only bright and lively thing in the room. On top of his book shelf was nearly 10 pictures, all of them were either him and Sarah, or Sarah alone. That made me sad, it did stuff to my insides that were most definitely not good. Why would he have pictures of Sarah. I could deal with his pictures with her to some extent, but alone pictures of her... I knew it meant something. 'Was there something between them?' Just the thought made me dizzy. 'What the hell is the matter with me? Why am I all of a sudden feeling this whole new pack of emotions?'

I went to his bed and let my body fall on the heavenly mattress. It hurt to think he liked someone else. Does he still like her? I spent nearly an hour thinking about this middle school shit. 'What the hell is wrong with me?'

My mind went to our kiss. We kissed before but it was like a sex kiss, like he just wanted to get into my pants. But this one was different, it was tender and soft, almost as if he cared. My thoughts were interrupted when someone came in the room.

"Leave." I heard his voice after he stared at me for 2 minutes.

"What?"

"Leave, I don't need you here." Here it was again. He went back to being a jerk to me.

"Well you seemed to really need me last night." I don't know why I said that, and I don't know why I said that so harsh. Like he was my boyfriend and I was demanding explanation from him because he came home late or something. He glared at me and made his way to his closet. Apparently he had some clothes here for when he came to visit.

"I need you and Alice to do some things for me." His tone was a little less harsh.

"Like what?"

"I sent Alice the list. I expect you to do your best Lily, this is really important." He called me Lily, that's the first time he used my name without sexual purposes. I made a small smile form on my lips.

"What's so important?"

"My wedding." He said as he came out of the closet with a new suit. My heart shattered the moment he said it.

"W...what?" I stood up from his bed but my legs weren't much of a help and I sat down again.

"It's in 3 months. Everything has to be perfect."

My mouth fell to the floor. 'What is this?' He started walking to his door to get out.

"What the hell do you mean your wedding? You kissed me this morning."

He stopped in his track and looked at me. His eyes were blank. Like always. "So?" That simple word threw daggers at my heart. I wanted to kill him, I wanted to stab him endless times.

As soon as I felt my eyes getting wet I took my phone from his nightstand to leave. I didn't want him to know I have feelings for him. 'Oh my God, I just admitted to myself that I have feelings for him.' I was once again trapped in a battle in my mind but snapped out of it and made my way to the door. He didn't stop me. 'Why would he? He doesn't have any feelings for you.'