Forbidden Love

17. And just like that... ✔️

I'm too ashamed to say I'm sorry for the delay...

Lily's POV

Today's the last day. The last day that Chris will be my boyfriend. The last day that I can have the right to tell him how much I love him. The last day that I can hold him close until I can't breathe. The last day that I can have him for me. Only me.

As of 6 PM this afternoon, Chris will be the lawfully wedded husband of Sarah Morgan, and Sarah will officially be the lovely bride of the Evans' family.

It hurt. The amount of pain was just too much. It was unbearable. I was sad. But I was also mad. Mad that I couldn't know what was going on. I knew there was no love in this marriage. But I couldn't help but feel that I was going to lose Chris forever in less than 8 hours.

I didn't know anything. It was frustrating. I didn't know why I should be sad. I didn't know why I should be mad. I didn't know what was going to happen to me after this. Chris and Sarah didn't tell me anything. I was so far in the dark, away from everything I thought I deserved to know as the person who's so in love with Chris that she's willing to let him marry someone else.

What was I thinking? Why did I keep doing this? When I knew there was no happy ending in there for me. When I knew I was going to be erased from the picture of Chris' life so soon. Why did I carry on with this? Maybe I was hoping that I could change it. No matter how much Chris and Sarah told me that they had to do it, I still had a slight ray of hope inside me that made me think maybe I can change the outcome, maybe I can prevent it. But I couldn't. And it was going to happen.

I felt Chris stir in the bed and reach out for my waist as he spooned me, my back towards him as I poured my eyes out.

"I love you." He said lowly. With so much sadness I could literally hear his heart and mine breaking more.

"I love you." He repeated himself, as if he was trying to reassure me.

"I lov..."

"Don't." I said as I turned around in his arms only to be faced with his tearful eyes. It broke me even more. He was supposed to be the strong one. But now here he was, showing me his tears for the first time after his mom's death.

"Don't... make it... any harder." I said as I ran my palm over his cheeks. His eyes were now oceans, literal oceans. No more similar to oceans in color only, but also in having waves of water in them.

"I love you." Was all he could say.

"I love you." Was all I could say.

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We stayed in each other's arms the whole day. I wanted to savor every smell, every kiss, every taste. We never did anything sexual. We just entangled ourselves in each other and whispered all the sweet nothings that we never got to say to each other, and shed a tear or two or a hundred every now and then.

It was calming, but it also was excruciatingly agonizing. With every second that the clock would go forward, I would break a little more. I was scared that by the time the ceremony was going to happen, I would be dead from depression and dehydration.

"Lily." His voice called me. This could be one of the last times he calls me by my name.

"Hm?" I didn't have the energy to muster anything slightly longer than this.

"It doesn't have to be over." He said as he planted a kiss on my cheek.

I turned to him, trying to read his expression. It was all just sadness. "It does Chris. I can't do that to Sarah." I let my head hang low.