Just A Fool- Nathan Sykes (Fan Fiction)

Chapter 4- You're The One I Want

"Are you going to stay mad at me forever?" I asked Micheal as he pushed past me without a word the next morning. 

"I'm not mad Kelly" He said with no emotion, sitting down at the table with his coffee. "You're very convincing" I said sarcastically, rolling my eyes. We drove home in uncomfortable silence yesterday after the party, we got inside and he went to sleep without a word. 

"I'm not mad at you" He paused "I'm frustrated with him. I don't like him being here back in town, around you" He said and I rolled my eyes. Sometimes his jealousy really irritated me but I understand it a little. He thinks that I don't have feelings for Nathan but I do and I feel bad. I really don't want to hurt Micheal, he's been so amazing with me and he really is an amazing guy but there's no way I could tell him that he's right to be jealous. Nathan and I can never be right now because I won't do that to Micheal. I won't cheat on him or end things with him just because Nathan is back in town for a little while. He'll be leaving soon anyway as he always does and then things will be fine with Micheal and I. 

"It's his home town Micheal, there's nothing either of us can do so you're just going to have to trust me" I said, leaving the room before he could reply. 

I started walking up the steps but couldn't take another step as I started to feel dizzy and so I leaned on the wall for support. I noticed I few drops of blood on the floor by my feet as I looked down. I brought my hand up to just below my nose and looked at the blood that was now on my index finger. I continued up the steps and went into the bathroom, looking at myself in the mirror with a bloody nose and a pale face. The bleeding stopped a few minutes later and my face started getting some colour. I brushed it off as a normal nose bleed and went back downstairs. 

"Are you okay?" Micheal asked me as I stepped into the living room where he was now sitting. "Fine" I said, a little too quickly. "I just need some air, that's all. I'll be back later" I grabbed my phone and took off. I was a little worried about the dizziness and nose bleed because it's never happened before but the thought soon left my mind as I saw Nathan casually strolling down the street, towards where I was standing but he hadn't noticed me yet. His house was quite a blocks away from here, so he had probably been walking a while. He hadn't seen me yet so I could have just gone back inside without him noticing me but my feet wouldn't move because deep down I wanted to see him and talk to him. 

"Kelly" He said from a few feet away from me and I walked towards him. "What are you doing here?"

"I live in this building here" I said pointing up to it and he looked up as I pointed. "With Micheal" I mumbled and he looked down at his feet "Oh" Was all he said and we stood there for a few seconds in silent. "Do you wanna take a walk?" I asked him, breaking the silence and he nodded, managing a small smile. I walked first, up the street and Nathan soon followed, catching up to me quickly. 

"I've been hearing you and The Wanted all over the radio, and sometimes you're all over TV too" I said, once again breaking the silence. 

"Yeah it's fantastic. A bit hectic at times but the guys are great and I'm doing what I love, no regrets. Except one" He said, looking over at me. Our eyes met for a few seconds before I looked away and focused on the road. 

"I'm sorry about kissing you Kelly. You're with Micheal and it's been three years. I shouldn't have ambushed you like that" He said, looking down at his feet. I knew he wasn't all that sorry and neither was I. I barely had time to process the kiss before Micheal came but I knew that I wanted him to kiss me again but I had to stop myself and focus on Micheal. "It's fine. Old feelings I guess but I'm sure we'll both get over them soon enough" I said and wanted to take back the words because I hated saying them. I was getting annoyed with myself because I was being so complicated and confusing. I wanted to kiss Nathan and I didn't want to get over the feelings I have for him and I don't want him to get over his feelings for me but then I do want him to get over me because that would make it easier. I keep thinking about Micheal and how hurt he's going to be and it kills me. But then I continue to do this with Nathan and I continue to think about him. 

I let out a sigh and Nathan gave me a confusing look. He hadn't replied to what I had said or maybe he had but I was too lost in my thoughts. We continued walking in silence along the road together, his arm brushing against mine once or twice. He was probably doing it on purpose but I ignored it. 

"I don't want to get over you Kelly. You're the one I want" Nathan said a little while later, breaking the silence. "Nathan...I..." I was about to say I don't want to get over him either but I stopped myself. "I can't. We can't. I'm with Micheal now and I won't hurt him because he's been nothing but good to me. You left remember? Without even so much as a goodbye, you at least owed me that" I said and walked off angrily. Nathan stayed in the same spot, not going after me like I wished he would. I took one last look back and saw Nathan turn around and walk the other way. Tears filled my eyes but I wiped them away immediately and continued on home. Nathan was probably getting frustrated with me too. I was nice to him and then suddenly angry with him. Surely after three years a person would get over it but I hadn't. I guess I just wanted Nathan to give a proper reason for leaving so that I could really decide if I wanted him back or if I wanted to never see him again so he couldn't hurt me again. 

A small thought went through my mind that if I got back with Nathan, he'd just hurt me again. I ignored the thought, not wanting to think about Nathan anymore. I got home and sat next to Micheal on the couch. "Got enough air?" He asked and I nodded. "Let's not fight about this anymore okay?" I said, looking up at him and he smiled, leaning down a little to kiss me on the head and I took that as his way of saying okay and left it at that, resting my head on his chest. 

Micheal's phone buzzed on the table next to the couch. I looked up to see him smiling at his phone. "What is it?" I asked him curiously. "Nothing" He said quickly, putting his phone back on the table. It was as if he was hiding something but I ignored it and went back to resting my head on his chest. Micheal's phone buzzed again but I ignored it this time. I didn't need to be so nosy anyway. 

"Uhm Kelly, I'm gonna go out for a bit okay? There's an old friend of mine in town. I'll be back later on, but not in time for dinner so don't wait for me" He said getting up and giving me a kiss on the cheek before leaving. I didn't get a chance to say anything because he practically ran out of the door. I wonder who this old friend was considering Micheal and I have known each other since we were a lot  younger and I know all of his friends. I brushed off the thought. Micheal is allowed to have old friends and go out with them especially since I was just with Nathan before this. 

You're the one I want...

I was alone to my thoughts and those words that Nathan said kept replaying in my mind. I know that he regrets leaving me those years ago and I know he wishes he could take it all back. He's fighting for me now but it's a bit too late...