Just A Fool- Nathan Sykes (Fan Fiction)

Chapter 13- Through the Dark

I woke up and ran straight to the bathroom to be sick. Nathan came in a little while later and held my hair back. He had been staying with me most nights , spending as much time as possible with me before he has to leave to go on tour. I stayed on my knees, hugging the toilet for a while, as Nathan sat down next to me on the floor, holding my hair and rubbing my back. I had a terrible headache and I couldn't help but cry it was so bad. But I was crying because of everything. Nathan was leaving in a week and I start surgery the day before he leaves. There is a chance that I could die and I have been feeling so horrible over the past few days. I can't stand it anymore but it is only the beginning. 

Nathan helped me up off of the floor and then he put his arms around me, pulling me closer to him. I cried even more as he did and I squeezed him tightly, not ever wanting to let go. "Please don't cry Kel." He said, rubbing my back. He moved so that he was looking into my eyes. He lifted his hand off of my shoulder to wipe the tears off of my cheek. "Everything is going to be okay, I promise." He said, smiling at me. The way he said it, so sincere and convincing, he really did make me feel like everything would be okay and that I would be fine but that feeling soon faded as I knew there was no way he could be sure of that and I might not be okay. And I can't even begin to imagine the effect that me dying is going to have on Nathan and my mother. 

"How can you be so sure of that?" I ask him but he doesn't answer. I know that he is just as scared as I am because he doesn't know for sure that everything is going to be okay because it isn't. "Let's go get something to eat." He says after a little while but I shake my head. I feel too horrible to eat and it's just going to come back up anyway. "Please Kel, you have to eat something, no matter how bad you feel.You'll be even more sick if you don't eat." He said and so I gave in. Nathan sits me down at the kitchen table and makes us both some eggs and toast. "Your mom went to work.' He said as he was buttering the toast. "Yeah, I figured." I said and he put the plate down in front of me. It would have smelt great to me on a normal day as I love eggs but right now it just made me feel sick but I ate it anyway. I pushed the plate away from me a little while later, having eaten very little but Nathan seemed satisified that atleast I had something. 

I put my hand to my head as my headache was getting worse but the doctor told me I wasn't allowed any pain killers before the surgery. I felt something drop onto my arm and I looked to see that it was blood. My nose was bleeing,which it does atleast three times a day. I'm not even bothered my it anymore. "Nathan." I said and he looks up at me from his plate. He gets up immediately to get me tissue. He moves to press it against my nose but I take it from him. "I can do it." I say, a little too annoyed and angry. I wanted to take it back as soon as I said it. "I'm just trying to help." He said and I felt bad. "I know. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to sound so annoyed. I'm not annoyed at you. Im angry at this stupid tumour and I have such a bad headache." I said, and the headaches are what usually cause me to be so sick. "I wish I could something." Nathan says and I smile at him. "I know. But you can't, neither of us can. I just have to deal with it." I said, feeling a bit dizzy. Nathan quikly takes my shoulders to steady me. Nathan helps me up, taking the tissue and throwing it away. "I think I should go back to sleep." I say and Nathan nods, helping me up the stairs. The doctor warned me that the symptoms would get bad like this if I left the surgery too long and if the tumour got bigger, which it obviously has and I'm worried that it might be too late. I have left the surgery long, I've been putting it off and I still have a week left of this. 

Nathan sets me down into the bed and then he moves in next to me. I turn to rest my head on his chest and he puts his arm around me. "Nathan." I say and he nods, "Yeah Kel." He says. "It's getting really bad. We both know it and I'm worried that it might be too late, I've left it too long." I say and Nathan squeezes my shoulder. "Don't think like that. I've heard great things about this doctor and he is going to be able to get rid of it and you are going to be fine. Do you want to go through with the surgery sooner?" He asks and I look up at him. "I can't, he's fully booked." I say. "Maybe there was a cancelation. Couldn't hurt to call and see." He says and I put my head back down onto his chest. "Okay." I say and I fall asleep a little while later.

*Nathan's P.O.V*

I felt Kelly's breathing rate slow down a little while later and I knew that she was asleep. I stayed with her for a little while later before carefully moving her so that I could get up. I pull the blanket over her and I make my way downstairs. I take my cellphone out of my pocket and call the hospital.

"Abbeydale Hospital, how may I help you?" A woman picks up and answers. "Yeah, could I speak to Dr. Stevenson please." I ask. "He's in surgery at the moment, can I take a message?" She asks. "I was just wondering if he has had any canellations reently, my girlfriend Kelly has a surgery for a brain tumour booked with him next week and I was wondering if we could make it sooner." I ask and I can hear her shuffling a few pages. "There has been a cancellation actually, I see he has three hours booked for Kelly next week and so if she would like she could come in tomorrow at one for the surgery." She says. I know Kelly wants to have the surgery sooner but I don't think she meant tomorrow. "Sir?" She asks as I was taking a while to answer he question. "Umm yeah that should be fine." I say and she shuffles a few more pages and I can hear her typing something on the computer. "Okay, so you'll need to come in half an hour early for preparation.' She says. "No problem. Thank you." I say and I put the phone down. I hope Kelly is going to be okay with it being tomorrow, if she's not I could always just phone and cancel again but then who knows how long it might be before she can have the surgery. 

I sit down on the couch and put my head in my hands. I love Kelly so much it hurts and I know that I will just fall apart if anything happens to her. I won't be able to think about anything else but her and the surgeries while I'm on tour. I wish that I could be with her the whole time, but I have so many other responsibilities to the band and the fans. I left her once and I can't bare to ever do that to her again, or for her to leave me. I still feel so guilty for what I did, I was a fool. 

*Kelly's P.O.V* 

I woke up a couple of hours later, feeling for Nathan but he wasn't there. I was feeling a little bit better but the headache was still there, just not as bad. 

"Nathan." I say as I make my way downstairs and I find him asleep on the couch. I shake his shoulder gently and he wakes up immediately. "Hey." He says with a smile and I smile back at him. He sits up, rubbing his eyes and I sit down next to him on the couch. "Feeling better?" He asks me and I nod but I can tell that he doesn't believe me."A little bit." I say. "The headache isn't as bad as it was, I'll be fine." I say. "Do you still want to do the surgery sooner?" He asks. "Yes. I just want it all to be done and over with." I say. "Good, because I phone the hospital and your surgery is at one tomorrow but we have to be there at half past twelve." He says and I start to feel nervous and scared. "Nathan!" I almost yell. "By soon I meant a few days earlier not tomorrow." I say, struggling to breathe. Nathan moves over and puts his arms around me. "The sooner the better Kel, you said it yourself and it was all they had. And now I can be there and not have to worry about packing and leaving so soon and I can be there with you for a while afterwards. You'll be glad when its done Kelm trust me." He says and I nod, putting my head on his shoulder and I calm down. He was right, it means I will have more time for him to help me after the surgery, and I will need all the help that I can get after the surgery. "I want to be there for you as much and as long as I can Kel. I love you and you don't have to be scared. I will be there for you with everything, through the dark Kel, you and me." He says and feel the tears, but not because I'm scared or because I feel terrible, but because I have him and I love him and I don't want to lose him. "I love you too." I say and he kisses me on top of the head.

My mom gets home a little while later and she immediately worries as she sees me and asks if i'm okay. "I'm fine mom, just woke up. I felt terrible this morning but I'm okay now." I say and she relaxs. "I'm allowed to worry you know, I'm your mother." She says and I smile. "The surgery is tomorrow." I say and she looks at me shocked. "So soon? I thought it was only next week." She says. "I wanted it sooner, to get it over with. Nathan made the appointment. "I suppose it is better. But what about the rest Kelly? You can't make them all sooner, there's a specific time that you have to wait." She says and my heart sinks. For a little while I had forgotten that there wasn't just one surgery that I would have to go through, there were going to be a few before it was completely gone and I would have to take lots of medication to make sure that it doesn't grow. But there's nothing that I can do about that. "I know." Was all I said. 

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