While Im Gone, Everything Will Be Alright (Jimmy Sullivan)

Your In Good Hands

hi everyone!!!! I actually wrote this chap fairly quickly!!! So I can't wait to hear your feed back!!!!! Thanks to Tiff for getting me on a writing roll for this story!!!!!

With out further delay, here it is!!!!!!!!

Enjoy!!!!!!

***Johnny's POV***

I stormed out of the house, being utterly pissed off at Brian. "Oh I did absolutely nothing!!!" I mocked his voice as I walked down the driveway.

For fuck sakes he had to have done something. One, because normal people don't run away from there family especially not lindsey. Two, he was the only one upstairs when this happened. Three, he is synyster fucking gates worlds biggest dick head!!!!

Ahhh I just wanted to fucking hit something! That douche bag with that wears the fedora would work perfectly!!

I kicked the lose gravel on the driveway, as I continued to walk. Shoving my hands in my pockets I sighed.

I just fucking want to be there for her... Like she was for me. Threw everything over these last years, Linds has been there. From break ups, to drunken bar fights, Linds was there to pick up our pieces.

I felt like a complete failure because we couldn't pick up her pieces when she needed help the most.

That's when I realized I left her alone upstairs.

"can I been anymore stupid Johnny" I hit my head, and I started walking back to the house.

I opened the door, trying to calm myself down a bit. Brian wasn't in the living room, thank god or I would have attacked.

Heading up the stairs, I ran into Zacky who was coming out of we room. Why the hell is Zacky talking with her? Those two hardly talk anymore.

"why were you in there?" I asked getting all defensive.

"relax dude I was just talking with her." Zacky started playing with this snake bits.

"about?" I pushed for a more elaborate answer.

He grabbed my arm and pulled me down the hall a little ways.

"look Johnny she finally opened up to me" my heart sank, cause I really wanted to be the one she confided in. "she's blaming herself, for not being there to save him"

I stared at Zacky, my mouth wide open in shock. Fucking hell! I can't believe that she thinks that.

"thanks for telling me Zacky" I smiled a bit patting his shoulder.

"yeah, no problem. By the way she's asleep" he smiled before running down the stairs calling out for Brian. "wait, while I'm still thinking of it, julia's coming"

I almost choked when he said that, if anybody could cheer up Linds, Tiff and Julia were those people. When you put all three of them together, it's like the three amigos on crack! Which is quiet hilarious!

"this week should be interesting" I laughed as I entered her room.

Linds was curled up, into a cute little ball on the bed. My heart beat sped up seeing her like this.

I always told the guys I loved Linds, like a sister but that was a total lie. I said that because she was with Jimmy, and not to mention she's way taller. Which would mean short jokes for me.

I climbed into bed laying next to her, smiling. Her ear buds were in her ears. I reached over grabbing her iPod. I clicked the home button, and saw she was listening to Almost Easy.

I chuckled, and I leaned in kissing her cheek softly. Once a fan girl always a fan girl.

She started to move around, shit I must have woke her up.

"Johnny?" she turned around seeing me so close.

"Yeah it's just me baby.... Linds" shit Johnny keep it together!!

She turned around, so she was laying down facing me. Her eye brow raised. For the first time, in several months a smile on her beautiful face.

"baby?" she asked looking me right in the eyes.

Fuck Johnny! Just make some excuse!!! Or just fucking tell her!!!

"um.... Yeah." I felt like such a idiot, cause I just gave her a doofy

smile.

Finally I just gave in to what my body wanted. I slowly got closer to her lips, surprisingly she never moved away. Soon I gently pressed my lips against hers.

It felt amazing, finally being able to kiss her. When I pulled away, I saw her face. It was a look of shock and terror.

"I'm sorry linds... I didn't mean" I tried to correct my actions... Even though deep down I wasn't that sorry.

"um...." her eyes started to get watery. Shit good going Johnny, your such a fucking idiot!!

"Look Linds, I'm just going to be honest. I like you a lot, more then I probably should after what's happened. I....just want to be the one there for you now, now that jimmy's gone" I blurted out the truth. She deserves that at least.

She just stared at me, her eyes wide. Great I just fucked up any chance with her... Not to mention our friendship.

"I... I don't know what to say Johnny"

"you don't have to say anything, I understand. You probably don't feel the same..." I gave her a reassuring smile.

"it's not that Johnny...." she gently grabbed my hand, lacing our fingers together. " I would love for you to be here for me..." even though that's all she said, I knew she was implying more.

I smiled big looking at her, my heart racing fast.

"I'm just not sure though..... I feel so guilty, I feel like If I love anybody else, I've turned my back on Jimmy. It's only been over five months... Since... You know"

I leaned my forehead against hers smiling, knowing that if I wanted this to work, then it would take awhile.

"I understand, but remember if Jimmy knew you were feeling guilty he'd kick you in the ass" my heart raced seeing her blush and chuckle a bit

"you need to start living life linds.... Cause one day you'll look back and see all the good times you missed. Not to mention, but when we all go up and see Jimmy, you'll need some kick ass stories for him"

She nodded and leaned her head against my chest, hugging me. I gently brushed her hair with my hand, looking over at the pic of Jimmy and her.

"I promise to take care of her Jimmy, but she needs to start letting you go" I said to myself.

I looked away looking down at linds. For once I think she was actually happy.

"we can take it slow... No rushing. We'll do things on your terms linds" she nodded against me.

"ok Johnny" she gave me a small smile, looking up into my eyes.

With all of us, working at this tough shell she put up. I think I finally cracked it wide open. As I held her more, I looked at the ceiling. I promise you, she's in good hands Jimmy.