Punk & Pink (Muke)

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Luke:

I let the tears fall down my cheeks and I try to hide it, it's not very attractive crying. I decided to be a forever alone person who watch movies by myself and cry... and that is how I ended up with a tear stained cheeks watching my favorite movie of all time... if I stay. I loved the books and I am just an emotional mess all the time because of it.

"Luke dinner!" I try to hide the tears when I walk downstairs but I am pretty sure my red eyes gives it away, because my mum just gives me a smile. She knows that I love watching that movie.

If you don't like it then I am judging you because it's so amazing!

"That stupid movie again?" I look up at Ben and just ignore him, he would never understand how much that movie effects my feels. Like dude it's a fucking emotional movie!

"Ben stop it" I look at my mum with a small smile and sit down at the table beside the chair where my dad always sits.

Is it only in my family where like you have your own places to sit even if no one says it? Like my mum always sits beside jack? And that Ben always sits at the end of the table. Maybe it's just my family being weird.

"I made homemade pizza, I hope you guys don't mind" I just smile at my mum and takes a piece of the pizza. My dad is working late today so he will be home later, he won't be able to eat with us... this is how it is every Wednesday he always works late... At first me and my brother thought he was cheating on our mother.... But then he told us about those trouble our family have had with money and we realized... he isn't doing this to meet another woman, he is doing this because he needs too..

I didn't think it would affect me as much as it does. I don't think that you really think about it until it really happens to you... you don't know how much of a change something so small can make until it happens to you...

"Thank you" I say and to my mum when she hands me a napkin.

"So what have you done today?" My mother asks us, and my brothers' star talking about all the cool things they have done with their friends... I have never done anything with my friends like they have with their friends... it's kind of weird how I can be their brother.

Sure we look alike but we do not have like any of the same interests, my brothers are like the sport jocks and I am that girl that is in the background... but then again I'm not a girl.