Punk & Pink (Muke)

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Luke:

Yes I have been tweeting Michael Clifford at least 5.000 times stop judging me. I just want him to notice me, just know that I exist for those two seconds it takes to follow me. Damn I am so whipped for a man who doesn't even know that I exist, what the fuck is wrong with me?

I close my laptop and walk over to my closet and look at all the colours that I have to pick from. I promised Cassandra that I would come to her friend Rebecca's birthday party. I tried to tell her that I didn't really feel like coming because I don't know this girl, and she is turning 18 so let's face it there is going to be a lot of alcohol and I don't really do well with that.

It's not like I don't drink... because I do, but I just kind of happen to have a hard time actually handling the alcohol... and I often happen to have fun the first half of the night and then spending the other half of it over a toilet.

I take out a black skirt and a black and white striped shirt with long arms. I am going to pull them up a little but I feel like this will work well together. I pick shoes and decide to go with just normal black converse because I do not feel like falling around in hills when I am probably going to get drunk off my ass.

I fix my hair and put a white flower crown on it because I always feel pretty with a flower crown. I decide that I maybe should have leggings on under the skirt because I am pretty used to getting comments about what I have under my skirt. I don't feel like having someone pulling up my skirt.

I just putt on mascara because I honestly don't feel like having much make up on tonight. I smile at my reflection in the mirror because I have been feeling beautiful sense the day I decided that I can dress like I feel like. I feel beautiful and that is all I care about, because if I don't love myself the way I am how am I supposed to find someone else that can?

"Luke are you going out?" I hear my mum's voice from the door. I look over at her and she looks at me with a look that are telling me that no boys are coming in to this house together with me tonight... oh like she actually believe that I will get lad from someone in this town.

"Don't be too late back honey." She says when I don't answer and she must have figured that yes I am going out tonight. She doesn't really have that much to tell me that I can't do, she can like tell me what she thinks is best for me, but I am 18 so I have to take my own decisions and honestly that scares the living shit out of me...

Just like teenagers scares the living shit out of Gerard Way.... Oh yes I did go there.

I hug my mum and tell her that I won't be back too late and that I have my phone with me if she needs to call about something. I don't know what she might have to call about but it feels like I need to tell her that yes I do have my phone with me if something happens and you need to call me.

I kiss her on the cheek before I take my black jacket and walks over to Cassandra's place because she promised we would go there together because I have no idea where it is.

"Luke Honey I didn't think you actually would show up I am surprised." She says when she opens the door and I can see on her face that yes she is actually surprise to see me. I would too because I was so freaking against going. I just give her a little smile and she leads the way in to the house where she still fixes her hair. She let her hair fall in big curls around her face and it's so weird seeing her with her hair like that because she doesn't look as emo as she usually does... She doesn't wear a band shirt which is a big freaking surprise because damn she always have a band shirt.

"Done" She says and smile at me. She looks so different in her black tight dress, like she doesn't even look that emo anymore. Her dark purple hair looks so girly in like a really girly way that I am so surprised that she is the girly one of us tonight... and I thought I looked girly.

Well I kind of still do look girly but she looks like a lot different. I am usually girly with pink and all, but just by her curling her hair is a big difference.

I know nothing really makes sense I am just so shocked about how she looks because damn she never dresses like this, it's weird.

"Let's go I don't want Rebecca to think that I didn't show up." She says and giggles and then tells me that Rebecca often gets drunk of her face, which surprise me a lot because she is turning 18. Sure I know people party when they are underage but still, I have only done it like 3 times and Cassandra makes it sound like this Rebecca girl have been doing it for ages.

I am pretty sure I don't even want to know when she started partying. I know that Cassandra started when she was 14 and I think that is so freaking crazy because they are like ruining their lives by getting in to alcohol at that age. Sure Cassandra is my best friend but that doesn't mean that I agree with all her choices. I respect them but not always agree with them.