Punk & Pink (Muke)

1.3

Michael:

I look over at Calum who looks like some psychopath where he is standing in his pajamas with a knife in his hand.

"What the fuck are you doing Calum?" I laugh out and he looks at me like he is a deer caught in the light. It's 3am here in the UK and I just went up to use the bathroom and found Calum standing in the kitchen with a knife.

"I was hungry and I can't open this Nutella jar." He says and shows me the jar of the brown shit that I really don't like.

"Well maybe it's all for the better." I answer and he just gives me the finger. I know that he is obsessed with Nutella but honestly I do not see what the big deal with it is, it's not even good like seriously.

"Here let me help you before you end up without an arm" I say and he hands me the jar, I open it without any problem and Calum just looks at me like I am some kind of god or something.

"So have you heard anything from pretty boy?" He asks me and I smile a little because he knows that I like Luke probably a little more than I should because honestly I do not know the dude more than that he looks fucking amazing in skirts and dresses... thank god for Instagram and twitter because damn those pictures does amazing things to me... I'm not even ashamed of it!

"I haven't heard anything from him" I answer and look down at my phone and then back up at Calum. I am really happy to share a room with him and Ashton and only them because of Jamie can't stand sleeping in the same room as the rest of us. He is a diva.

"Hey guys what are you talking about?" I look at Ashton who is coming out from one of the bedrooms, I kind of feel bad for him because we probably woke him up.

"Mikey's crush on pretty boy" Calum answers before I have a chance to say anything, naaw he is so sweet...

"Naww so anything new? Have you even tried to take contact with him like on more personal and not fan?" Ashton asks me and I look down at my hands, I feel a little ashamed because I haven't, I don't know how to. I really want to but I do not want to get my hopes up and then have the papers later on writing how I am using my fans...

"What is the worst that can happen? That you get happy?" Calum asks me and I look up at them with tears in my eyes. I have been so broken for so long and I just want to find someone who loves me for me and not for what I do. I just want to find someone who likes me.

"Why don't you try?" Ashton asks me and I feel like they are asking me so many questions and I don't have the answers I do now know what I am supposed to answer, I want to be strong but I can't.

"I don't know... all I know is that I wish I could go back in time and meet him before I got famous so I know if he likes me because of it or not" I answer and look at them and Ashton have this look in his eyes that he always have when he really don't know what he is supposed to say... what is he supposed to say?