ANAHI'S POV
With the last amount of energy that I had, I used my good leg to pull my weak exhausted body into the house. I had finally managed to keep my tears under control but I still felt heartbroken beyond repair. I felt absolutely shattered and saw no reason to keep living this wretched thing called life. I just wanted to close my eyes and fall into a deep, deep sleep.
The house was dark and was in a deafening silence. My mind was completely empty. No words. No thoughts. Nothing.
I reached the top kitchen cabinet and pulled out a heavy Jack Daniels bottle and dragged myself up to my room. After writing on a note and sticking it to my door saying that I wasn't feeling well so don't disturb, I locked my door shut and popped open the bottle, chugging it down immediately. The burn my throat felt was satisfying in a way and was the only thing that could bring me into a temporary bliss. Some drops ran down the sides of my neck and gave me chills at coldness of it.
I dug through my drawers and took out a pack of Marlboro smokes that I took from Kyle and lit one up in my closed up bedroom. At this moment I didn't care if mother smelled the smoke. There's no way possible that her punishment would be any crueler than the things I've been chosen to live now. She can bring me hell but I wouldn't know the difference since it already feels like I'm living it.
I coughed even more at the discomfort the smoke brought to my lungs but I suck it up and continued to inhale the smoke. My room began to fog up so I decided to open a window. That's when I heard music playing from Kellin's house. The music was incredibly loud, even with the windows closed. I knew exactly what song it was.
I stood by the open window and felt the tears welling up in my eyes again, the cigarette burning between my fingers and hanging out the window. It was on repeat and began again.
I swear that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
In my mind, I could see Kellin singing along to this loudly. I took a deep breath and sung along to the next few lines.
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you (I had in you)
(The slanted bold print is Kellin singing. The normal slanted print is Anahi. The underlined bold print is both of them singing.)
*Start Chorus*
Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words, so sing along for me, baby
For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same
*End Chorus*
I could feel the tears falling faster and faster down my face. I couldn't keep them in any longer. As I sang, or much rather choked out, I slid my back down the wall next to my open window. I was sobbing at this point. My every word was instead a cry of emotion.
I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across your key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see us - not you and me
And you'd help me out of the dark
I'd give my heart as an offering (as an offering)
