Anahi's POV
**WEDNESDAY MORNING**
'Ugh it's morning. God I'm so fuckin tired and hungry.' I thought as I lay in bed with my alarm yelling in my ear. 'How long has it even been since I've last eaten? Damn I don't even know.' I hit my alarm to make it shut the fuck up and i slowly sat up, my stomach hurting like Hell. Yesterday morning I found an app to help lose weight. I tried the ab-workout and it hurts so fucking bad!
I used my strength to just get off bed! "holy fuck!" I loud whispered to not wake my mom. Oh I almost forgot I also tried the leg and butt workout and its 5am. Right when I stood straight I felt the room spin beneath my feet. " woah!" I said as I tried my first step. I didn't even get up quick. I tried to walk out of my room and into the restroom but ended up crashing into door frame next to the entrance. "Aw fuck!" I loud whispered, rubbing my forehead.
I finished washing my teeth and face then walked downstairs with my jogging suit on. The first thing I saw in the kitchen was two slices of watermelon sprinkled with chili powder inside a glass bowl covered with plastic wrap resting on the marble table. My mouth watered as I walked to it. I noticed a note beside it.
'I knew it was your favorite fruit and your progress report just came in. I'm so proud. All A+!! keep it up sweetie!
Love,
Mom'
I bit my bottom lip and thought about weather to eat it or not. 'I couldn't just throw it away. She would find out and it would crush her. She knew that whenever I had a watermelon slice I would gobble it down in less than a minute. Ill eat just one. Wait but that would be 86 fuckin calories! no! and two would be 172! Oh my god ill look like a fuckin pig! god no! wait but I already look like one! wait I know. Ill just eat it and get rid of it right after!' I thought and ripped the plastic wrap off.
I took in the watermelon slice in both my hands and digged my teeth in, savoring every single moment of it. In less than a minute I began on the other slice liking my fingers at the end. I dug my fingernails in my wrists and thought 'god your a fuckin pig Anahi! how can you look at yourself! get rid of it Anahi! just get rid of it!'
I ran to my room after I put the plate in the sink and burst into my room. I removed my shirt leaving my undershirt only. A rush of cold air hit my bare arms. After I quickly locked my bedroom door I lifted my shirt. My reflection stared back at me in the mirror. I looked up at my name craved into the mirror. 'Anahi. Anahi. Anahi' I repeated in my head.
My fingers trailed over my scars from Monday and yesterday. Last night's were still soar. A lose tear trailed down my cheek as I stared at my stomach. 'I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you!' I said in my head. 'Remember when he gave you this Anahi?' I asked inside my head 'remember when you came home and dad surprised you with this mirror? You were so happy. So amazed by the carvings on the mirror. You couldn't believe your father spent his time at work creating this for YOU.' When my dad was still with us he worked in a glass company. 'What a waste of time.'
I ran inside the restroom whispering to myself "get rid of it. Get rid of it. Get rid of it. Get. Rid. Of. It. Anahi." I went on my knees and lifted the toilet seat. My body was shaking. I've never done this before. Not until now.
I took a deep breath and said quietly "get rid of it." then put two fingers in my mouth until I began gagging. I backed away and said "I can't do this. I can't." 'Do it just do it Anahi.' I said in my head. I took another deep breath looking up at the ceiling. "Ok" that was the last word before I threw up the watermelon I had just eaten.
After that I worked out harder then ever. By the time I was done I felt dizzy and my bones shaked at usual when I finished running. I quickly took a shower and dressed then put my makeup on. I didn't feel really well so I wore a cream colored tank top with a navy blue nitted cardigan and navy blue denim jeans with a brown belt and brown shoes.
I looked at myself after I brushed my teeth and grabbed my bag and stared at my face. I was usually tan but today I looked pale, my lips dryer than usual. I sighed and walked downstairs before my mom left to work. We said our goodbyes and I waited for Kellin.
"Hey you alright? you don't seem well." He asked when he saw me
"I'm fine. Lets just go please." I waved him off as my head pounded in my ears.
After school I walked inside my room and laid down. I replayed a moment at school in my head as I slowly closed my eyes.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~FLASHBACK TIME!
"So are you ready for tonight hmmm?" I asked Monique
"Um I don't know. I'm nervous" she smiled.
"I'd be too. But don't worry. Just stay cooooolll." I leaded back in my chair. Karolina had a dentist appointment and my teacher was at her teachers training.
Monique giggled and said, "can you please come?"
"What me?! um..... I don't know. I mean I don't want to interfere between you too. Well didn't you say you hit it off on Monday and yesterday?" Monique and Austin had hanged out at snack for two straight days. And of course Austin was the one to look for her.
"Well yea but I'm nervous." She said
"Just relax. Pretend like you were hanging together at snack." I said
She sighed and said "ok ill try. Thanks Anahi."
"Dude no problem. I got your back." I hit my chest with my fist and made a peace sign as I said the last part in a gangster voice. She laughed.
I walked out of class with Monique and we hugged goodbye then went separate ways to our classes. I was walking a bit slow to class so there wasn't much people in the halls. The last person finally went into class and I was alone.
All I heard were my footsteps. Or at least I thought were mine. I felt someone behind me walking faster and faster. I tried walking away.
At the turn I felt someone tug my upper arm making me wins in the burning sensation it caused on my fresh morning cuts. I turned to face none other than Jason. He looked furious.
He pushed me to the wall holding my upper arms firmly causing me horrid pain. "So what were you doing in KELLIN'S car? huh Anahi!?" he loud whispered. My body froze
"He gives me a ride." I stuttered
"Why couldn't you tell me! I'm YOUR boyfriend not that emo fag!" he raised his voice. When he said that it stung my heart.
"You have practice at 6:30. School starts later." I said quietly
"So that doesn't matter! your MINE. only MINE! if I can't have you no one can! your mine mine mine." each time he said 'mine' his grip got tighter around my forearms. "No body else! Understand?! no body else! only MINE."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~ END OF FLASHBACK!!!
I opened my eyes as his words repeated in my mind over and over again. 'MINE MINE MINE' I sat up and removed my cardigan. Just as I expected. On each of my arms I had red lines imprinted. Surely they would be bruises there tomarrow.
BUZZZZZZZZ
The door bell rang an hour later. I was doing homework. I slowly got my weak body up. Suddenly I felt it get extremely heavy as I took my first four steps. The room spun around me as I reached for the door nobb of my room. It seemed to be 3 of them. My knees suddenly gave up on me and I fell to the floor. My eye lids felt heavy, slowly closing. The door bell rang and rang as the world around me slowly went black.
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CLIFFHANGER!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD
Helllooooooooooooo!!!!! lol omg two chapters in one day!!! XO lol yea I'm that cool! its kinda short and im sorry if it sucks but I wanted to write something really quickly. It's like 2am O_O lol earlier I was supposed to be practicing my guitar but meh its..... soooo.. far....away! lol but yea omg I have 957 reads in just one day!!!!!!!! Its like 53 reads in one day!!!!!!! OMFG THIS IS WHY I DECIDED TO UPDATE!!!!! THANKS SO FLIPIN MUCH FOR READING!!! I LOVE U ALL!!!! BYE BYE!!! ill try to update soon!!!! ^_^
