I haven't figured this out yet (Jack Harries)

Chapter 18- Letting Go

Dakota's POV

I made my way to the hospital and bounded up the stairs. I was about to just bust open the door, but something stopped me. Most likely the fact that I'm no good talking to people. But it was also because I didn't know what Jack was gonna say, and more importantly, what I was gonna say. I starred at the door and tooked a deep breath, and grabbed the door handle, turning it a little. I pushed the door open and Jack's head snapped towards mine. I smiled a bit and his face turned ice cold. My smile trembled a little.

"Can I come in?" I asked sheepishly.

"Why?" He snapped back. I took a deep breath, my hand shaking, and tears threatening to fall, but I blinked them back.

"I came to talk to you." I sighed. "I know your angry."

"Angry?" He said. "Angry? You think I'm angry? The one person I loved cheated one me, and you think I'm angry? I'm furious!"

"Jack! I know! You think this hasn't torn me apart? I've sat in my room crying for days!"

"I've been sitting in a hospital for days!"

"I knows, but you didn't have to push me out of the way! You could have saved yourself a world of pain! Why did you save me?"

"I pushed you out of the way because I love you! But it seems you don't love me back." He said through gritted teeth.

"Are you even kidding me right now?"

"What?"

"You don't know what this has put on me! Ask anyone! Oh wait, you can't! Cause you pushed me out of the way, when I had time to move. You could have died! You think I wanted you to do this? You think I don't regret being the reason the only man I ever loved and will ever love is in the hospital, because of me? That is literally the worst feeling inside. I'm so sorry Jack, and I love you but, I think it's time for me to go." I quieted down for the last part and said. "It's time for me to let go."

I turned towards the door and bust out, running. I had to get out of here. I had to go home. I would finish my classes online and try to forget. I bounded home as fast as my little legs would carry me, and bust into my dorm. I pulled out my suitcase, and booked the soonest flight to LA which was tonight. I threw all my clothes into my duffle, then my sheets and stuff. I grabbed my MacBook, my drawing stuff, and my book and shoved it in my grey gym bag. I looked in the mirror, and ran my fingers through my straightened hair and fixed my sweater, tying my shoes, and grabbed my bags. I wrote a note, a different one to everybody. But an especially long one to Jack. I just needed to leave.

I hailed a cab and he drove me to the airport. I payed him and went to security. I show them my phone showing that I booked the flight, and got my bags checked. I carried my grey bag with me and hopped on the plane. The entire time I only throughy about one thing and one thing only.

Jack.

Jacks POV

Dakota left the door wide open, and I was left in awe. She wants to let go. Of everything we had. I know how angry I felt when I heard what she did, but looking at her beautiful long blonde hair, and her chocolate brown eyes, I forgot everything. Everything I was mad about. What she said, it really touched me. I sighed and threw my head back on my pillow. I felt tears coming, and I just let them fall. I didn't care. It takes a real man to cry over a girl. I just layed there, crying. I layed motionless for a while until I heard a tiny knock on my door, and I wiped away the tears.

"Yes?" I replied and a young nurse walked in. She smiled at me and said.

"Mr. Harries, you will be able leave now if you would like." That was probably the greatest news I had ever heard. I thanked her and texted Finn to bring me a change of clothes. He showed up and threw me some navy sweats which fit nicely over my cast boot. I grabbed a plain black tee and an Adidas sandal, and headed out the door. Finn and Helen were waiting for me, and seeing how happy they were and it reminded me of Dakota and I. She stood with her head against his chest and his arms around her. I had to look at the floor to not to cry. Finn looked over to me and gave me a comforting look and Helen gave me a hug. We walked out into the streets of London and hailed a cab. They dropped me off at my dorm and I opened the door.

I looked around and fell onto my bed. I starred at the blank ceiling, mad thought. About everything. Without thinking, I sprang up and headed for the door. But, with my leg cast, it kinda made it, uh, really hard. None the less, I still went whole-heartedly to Dakotas. I was determined to get her back. I got to her dorm and stopped infront of it. I took a deep breath and knocked. I waited, and ran my fingers through my hair. No answer.

I knocked again. No answer. I reached for the knob, and twisted, entering the empty room. The beds were stripped and the wall of her drawings were all taken down. I looked around and saw a small slip of paper. A letter. One to each of us. I picked up the one that said Jack. It read:

Dear Jack,

If you ever read this, it means you have forgiven me, and although that is wonderful, by the time you read this, I will be gone. I'm leaving to go back to Los Angles. I know this may be hard for you, but it's also so hard on me as well. Seeing you laying in the hospital, made me realize that you deserve so much better than me. You deserve to be happy with someone beautiful and kind and funny. You deserve someone and something better than me. I saw how hurt you looked when you heard the news and seeing you laying in the street, dying, that's when it hit me, I had to leave. It's better this way. We will drift apart and forget about each other and you will find someone perfect for you and get married, have kids and grow old together.

Jack I just want you to know that it was not your fault, it was entirely my own. I love you so much, but I made a mistake and I don't want to you to feel bad. I'm the one one who should feel this way, not you. I want you to find someone else. I can't keep you feeling awful, when it was me. I love you Jack, and I will always be waiting for you.

Infinite XOXO

Dakota <3

I sank to my knees. She was gone. She wanted to leave. I made her leave. She loves me. She loves me. She loves me. And I love her.

I'm not letting her go.



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Sort chapter. Sorry but a few more good chapters and then it's the end! I want ideas for a better ending so leave it in the comments! Also don't forget to check out 'Her Eyes' my new book! Love y'all

-Abbey