Sohni Kuddi Namkeen Badi

Chapter 16

Sohni Kuddi
I grinned as I saw Rohan, moving out of the office with hurt plastered all over his face. Finally my plan was successful. Now that he heard me moaning someone else's name other than him and judging him from his possessive nature back then, I knew this was over. He will never want to marry me at all. But how could Mom fix this marriage without my concern? I will talk to her tonight. She doesn't rule my life. She cannot take my decisions. Am an independent, well educated girl, marriage is something that will be with my choice.  And it's not like we have some mother daughter relationship.. we hardly even talk.

If she had time from her outside world, friends and social life, maybe then today I would not be feeling this way towards her. As far as I have seen, every person in my life loves their mother dearly. A mother is a loving personality. She carries you in her womb for nine long months, go through all the pains. Sacrifices for child's happiness. Educates her child, maintains health and what not? But my case was different.

My mother never talked to me from as long as I can remember. She always kept the best of food aside for Alia and I get second preference. I have always and always envied Alia. The way Mumma ji feeds her lovingly with her own hands. Caresses her face and kisses her goodnight. I had no one. No one to give me that love. If you see from my eyes, Alia was really very lucky. And it's not like I have done something to deserve this. I don't even know the reason behind her behavior towards me.

In fact Dad, being a dad, has always been there for me. But he loves Alia equally too. Maybe the reason that I saw her sleeping with someone else in absence of dad is behind all this. But was it my mistake? I accidentally saw her with him. I don't even know why and who was he. The fact that Dad didn't reacted to it was more surprising. As if he doesn't cares. As if there's no love.

Anyways after I followed Rohan till the parking, he took off his car and went ahead driving rashly. Not my concern anymore. I turned back to go to Kian. He must be so confused. My poor baby. But as I was going ahead I got a call. And after months, it was the first time, that Mummaji's name flashed on the screen.
" hello" I said as I picked up.
" you are coming back home right now. I don't want any excuses. Be here in 10" she said dangerously angry. Before I could answer her the line went dead. What does she think of herself? Today I will get this done with. I thought firmly.

I moved out again. The thought of Kian completely left my mind. It was all about how am going to talk to her when I reach back home. I didn't even came to know when I turned the right turns and reached home. All the way my mind was completely occupied. I got down and shut the car door with a loud bang. I wanted her to know am angry at her as well. She has no right to do this to me.

" so you are finally here " she said as I entered. Poison dripping throgh her voice. I stayed put. " it's just because of you that Alia has gone to ask for their forgiveness. What do you think of yourself? You go to office to do a job or to romance? And anyway if any such thing was happening why didn't you tell us? The guy said you were his girlfriend back then! And now.. it's not even being a month and you have found a new love interest? What the hell are you upto? "

And she went on and on. I paid no heed after this. If she thinks am affected or am guilty, please someone let her know that I don't give a fuck. I don't find it important to respond to people who mean nothing to me. To be a mother is not just giving birth. Its so much more. And she is in no true sense even close to be my mother.

" why the hell are you standing like a statue? Say something? Don't you have anything to justify your actions lady?" She yelled again. Dad was standing there too. Asking her to stop yelling but she paid no heed. As always. He looked at me with pity in his eyes. I don't give a damn anymore.

" you will teach me what love is Mom?" I told her with deadly low voice. " you? " I looked into her eyes. She was sitting on the couch and I was still standing at the entrance. Dad was just aside me standing as well. " The one who slept with someone else when her husband was out on a business trip? And who knows it was just a night or.." I was interrupted with a loud slap across my face. I looked up to face Dad. He looked extremely angry with my words.

Some words, no matter how true they are, and how much you want to say it, you should keep it to yourself. Somethings are not to say aloud at all. And those were my words for which I shouldn't have given my voice too. Dad left that moment. And I saw a single tear roll down from mummaji's eyes as she got up slowly from her couch, as if she was in deep pain. And then she left too. I stood alone. And I felt alone too.

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