Small World (A Jensen Ackles Love Story)

Chapter 32

It's finally the scene to film where Dean dies. I don't know how I am going to pull this off. We need to get this in one take because of the blood and mine and Jared's cries. I just finished talking to the director and walked back towards the room we were filming in. I saw Jared over against the wall thinking and turned and saw Jensen crouched down holding the door handle with his head leaned up against his wrist. I left him alone since he was preparing for a hard scene. I walked over to a corner and sat down. We had 5 minutes until we filmed the scene and I closed my eyes and tried to think of sad things. I hate doing that because it scares the crap out of me but I need to do it.

The director finally called for us to get in position. I stood next to Jared acting like I was attached to the wall. Jensen started talking and all I could do was cry. They moved the camera towards me and I kept my eyes on Jensen. He looked at me and had sad eyes. He was really playing Dean well.

They finally moved the camera out and had others that were in different positions so they could make different shots. I heard the evil laugh from the "demon" and that is when Jared goes to stab her. I watch Jensen move around the ground and scream while fake blood came from under his shirt. It actually looked some what real and that made me cry more. Finally he stopped and I ran to him. His eyes were open and he wasn't moving.

"No Dean! Please answer me! Dean! You have to wake up! I need you please!" I cried.

Jared came over slowly while crying looking down at Jensen and got on his knees. He gently picked up Jensen by his head and kept whispering no while looking at his brother. Finally the director called cut and asked me to move so they could get a shot of Jensen from the ground while Jared was holding him. I moved immediately and left the room. I know it was fake but it looked all to real and seeing him look dead and Jared crying made it worse. My heart feels like it is breaking. I leave the house and run up the street. Thankfully we are in the country and near a hill. I sit down and pull my knees to my chest before I put both my hands over my eyes and rest my elbows on my knees.

"Ryden! Where did you go?" I hear Jensen yell. I can hear him come closer. I just stay still.

"Hey!" he whispered as  he got closer to me. He sat down behind me and put one arm under my leg and the other around my back and turned me where I could bury my head into his chest. "you were amazing back there. You're okay." He's had to cry a few times and he knows how to handle everything better.

"I'm sor-sorry. It just looked re-real and then with Ja-Jared crying.. I just couldn't ha-handle it" I say while sobbing.

"You are fine. It's okay for the emotions to come out. You are having to force them out for acting and sometimes its hard to recover from it. You did great baby girl. Director said you were amazing. He loved what you did. I know you improv that scene a little. They loved it." He kissed my head.

I finally got control over my crying and leaned back to look at Jensen. He smiled at me and I smiled back. He brought both hands up to my face and wiped the tears away. "Don't you ever look that dead again." I say seriously.

"Don't worry I won't. And I don't like having to act like that. I couldn't comfort you and I could tell you were really crying." He kissed my forehead and then stood up and reached down to help me up. "let's go see Jared."

We walked back to the set and found Jared standing outside.

"Ryden you were amazing back there." He said while hugging me and kissing the top of my head in a brotherly way.

"Thank you!" I smile at him.

"Are you going to be okay?" he asked

"Yeah. I just didn't like seeing you cry or Jensen dying. I'm good now." I say with confidence.

We all walk back to the cars and decided to go eat. Jared drove himself so he could go home afterwards and we could go back home too.

"Season 3 down. Wedding to go" I say smiling at Jensen as he grabs my hand and entwines our fingers and rest our hands in his lap.

"Wedding to go." He repeats while smiling.

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So I hope you all liked this. I tried to update faster for you! I tried to make it longer and I plan on updating 2-3 chapters soon! I have to type them up soon (hopefully I can) before I lose what I want! Hopefully I have time this week! Please keep reading and voting and commenting. I still have a few plans for how I want this story to go! Love you all!!! :)