Charlotte Troy rejection

His life

Derek's PoV

For months now I have felt less of my mates pain, I have tried so hard to forget about her but I can't me and Sasha had ended our relationship after I told her I had found my mate but had rejected her, she told me I was a fool that I shouldn't of picked her over my mate. But she didn't understand how deep my love was for her.

Now I feel more empty as I no longer have the one I love in my life making me forget about my mate. Each day i would force myself to into work, I had become a shadow of a man.

My wolf whimpers for his mate begging me to find her and have her at our side, some days I would feel her emotions she seemed to have less pain and more fire in her. I had heard that she was no longer the same girl she was each day she would train hours on end.

The reason I knew this was because I was friends with Leo's third In command Kyle, I was helping there pack with some new build and as the council had asked me for ideas on the design of them. Kyle being the only one who would meet me for the plans the council asked for.

When I asked him about Charlotte he said all he knew from what he had over heard she was doing better she was starting to open up more and trains harder each day pushing herself each time.

I was happy for her but I felt empty inside I regret rejecting her I had to find a way to see her but her father would still not do business with me or my pack the only way I could get close to her was if Kyle would help me but I still didn't know if he would as he knew of me rejecting her.

I truly did feel bad but the only way I could try to forget about her was to sleep around but it didn't help it made me feel worse as I would feel her pain after I had my one night stands goddess I'm so stupid.

I ask myself each day why did I rejected her,why couldn't I just accept her and have my true soulmate surely having my real mate was worth more than what I had with Sasha, even Sasha had broke it off me because she thought so herself.

I need Charlotte now more than ever but knowing what I have put her though would she even give me a second chance at been her mate would she let me in her life like it never happened.

Fuck I didn't even no any more it was slowly killing me inside out not having her. Goddess I wish I could take it all back the rejection the pain everything that I have done. Each day the more I think of her the more my heart ached for her and yet I didn't do anything about it. I just sat back forcing myself into work and the pack being the biggest idiot of a life time.