3000 Nights

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I had decided I wanted to be alone tonight.

I didn't want to call my friends and talk about my "date" with Dom.

I didn't want to talk to my family.

And, I didn't want to see my wolf.

I just wanted peace.

And quiet.

So I slammed the front door and ran up to my room.

I needed to think.

What the hell was I supposed to do?

I had the most popular, and by most teenage girl standards, the best looking guy in town, begging for my attention.

But he was an asshole.

A hot asshole...

But an asshole.

He tried to force himself on me last weekend!

He was out of his mind drunk and tried to force himself on me!!!

What the hell was wrong with him!?!?

And let's not forget about my birthday! He did the same thing!

Twice!! Within like, 2 weeks!

And now he was pretending to be all sweet and caring...

What is a girl to do?

And then there's Travis...

My wolf.

This connection I had with my wolf was there long before I knew he was a man.

But he was still a wolf...

...Most of the year...

Unreachable - Untouchable - Unrealistic

Physically and Emotionally.

Well, it was decided.

I shouldn't be allowed to have a love life.

That's it.

I won't date.

End of discussion.

I wasn't meant for it.

Too many complications...

Too much drama...

I'm too awkward, and inexperienced.

So... Then it's settled.

NO MORE BOYS.

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I couldn't sleep.

I tossed and turned for hours.

The little sleep I did get was interrupted by nightmares and left me drenched in sweat.

I rose from bed early, partly because I had finally given up actually getting any sleep and my mind was running wild, with thought of passion, fury, love, and terror.

Part of my sleeplessness was also because I could feel Travis outside my window.

Waiting...

and pacing...

and waiting...

And pacing...

And waiting....

for me to come out.

I had truly given up on the thought of sleep when I heard his howl.

Mournful and lonely at 5 am.