1 week later
Phils POV
Dear diary,
Dan killed himself.
He killed himself. I couldn't do anything. I was useless. What if it was my fault? I don't know. I feel like I was responsible. I should've looked after him better. He said he needed me, and i failed. No, he is...was old enough to look after himself. I don't know. I'm rambling. I haven't left my bed.
A nurse woke me up when I had passed out, my mam called her to make sure I was okay. I wasn't okay. But according to the nurse I just needed rest. I needed Dan, not rest.
I haven't talked to anyone, hardly even my family. So now I'm just spilling everything and rambling.
I need Dan. I miss him. I love him.
I have a really bad feeling about my future, and I'd rather not go through more pain. I don't want to see anyone go through what Dan did, and I don't want to fall in love again. I want to die being in love with Dan.
I can't do this anymore, I'm not doing anything with my life no more.Im sorry for all this heartbreak, and all the unexpected deaths, but It's time I went to see Dan.
So, a goodbye from me and Dan, forever...heh we would always refer to the world as the Internet
So goodbye internet
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