popular people have secrets as well

am i gay?

Dan's POV

I walked away after seeing Phil blush.I smiled to myself thinking about it.I had made him blush.Just by calling him Philly.I didn't want a cigarette anymore.Cigarettes calm me down,i smoke instead of self harming and it normally works quiet well but sometimes it isn't enough.

I got home quite quickly as I was walking fast.I wanted to get home.I wanted a shower.My hair was dirty and I smelled sweaty.After my shower I went down stairs and locked the front door.

After that I made myself some toast and sat on the kitchen bench.

*ping!* went my tablet. I crawled along the bench until I reached my tablet and checked what the ping was about

'meet us at the skaty in 20'  the message was from Darren,one of my friends,even though I felt like punching him most days

I replied 'can't, anyways who is us?' I couldn't be bothered to go out plus some of his friends were dicks

He reply was quiet quick 'me,brandon,Joe and that chick that likes you,Dude stick it in her'

I nearly choked on my toast.Right then I felt like punching him.

'Nah I'm not coming out.lm tired ,Darren have some respect for the girl will you? She is 13 you idiot.'

I sighed and put the plate I was using into the empty sink,we didn't cook much,all my dad did was order pizza and then later puke it up.I fed myself most of the time.
'dude wtf she is hot,u can fuck her till her brain doesn't work and she will even let you!Dude u are gay as hell'

I didn't care what he said,he shouldnt talk about a girl like that.

'Whatever.And so what if i was gay,what if i was? Leave me alone Darren and that girl' After I sent the message I turned off my tablet and went upstairs and climbed into bed.

2:38am

I was still awake,thinking.I texted Phil.

'Phil I think I'm gay...'