Until Your Heart Craves In (Chris Motionless/Joshua Balz FF)

Chapter 22 (Axelia/ Josh Pov)

~Balz~

I was out looking for Axelia, she been gone all night. I knew she told me that she was going out for air but I didn't know it was gonna be taking a whole bottle of Vodka and two whole bottles of Jack Daniel's. "Dammit Axelia where the Fuck are you." I yelled and slammed my hand down and started to sob for the third time. I walked up to the door and opened it. I saw Layla and Chris. "have you heard anything from Axelia?" she shook her head and started to sob. Chris hugged her, "This is all my fault." she said while sobbing, "She okay?" Chris said. "No Axelia just left without telling us anything, the liquor cabinet was open Layla is blaming herself." Chris sighed as he sat next to her. He mumbled something to her and she started talking while sobbing. Chris pulled her to his lap and I felt a pang in my heart know if something bad happened to Axelia I probably never see her again. "You okay Josh" I shook my head and we head the door open and closed.

~Axelia~

I woke up stiff. I sat up and saw I was at a park, the sun was hurting my head. "What happened" I mumbled to myself and saw the three bottles of Liquor. "Shit" saying to myself, I just keep breaking my promise to Lala. I got up and started walking home which didn't take long. I opened the door and closed it. I walked in to see my sister, Chris, and Josh sad and crying. "What's wrong?" I asked them, Layla shook her head and looking down worried and sad, "We thought you got kidnapped or killed..." she said loudly at me. I held my head and groaned. "Ugh all I did, is I just went out and drank." "Axelia that doesn't help anyone" she sigh and getting shoes on, "where are you going?" Josh asked her while he got me Advil and a glass of water and handing it to me. I winced and grabbed my head "guys stop being loud please" "Home, I can't be here right now. I can't see my sister like this, it's bad enough that I used to go drink my problems away and I made her promise she wouldn't do it but now she broke our promise" she said as I looked at the ground; "I'm going home, if you guys need me." with that she and Chris left. I looked at the ground ashamed that I was like this.

"Why?" I looked up at Josh to see he was upset and his eye's were puffy and red. "I was depressed and upset that everything happened yesterday. I don't have a razor anymore so I turn to Liquor to drink my problems away. I broke my promise to her so many times now. I really fucked up didn't I! I just keep Fucking up everything I do, My parents were right that I wasn't meant to be here that---" "Stop it! Don't say that it's not true and don't you dare say it is because it's not. Axelia do want to know what I see in you, I see a smart, funny, talented, over protected, confident, loving, caring, care free attitude, I love how you smile, I love all your scares, I love how your obsessed with batman, I love how you care for other, I love that your beautiful inside and out, I love that your yourself and not pretending to be someone else, I love how you make me smile and how you make me love you, and I love how I can be myself with you around, I love you Axelia and I would do anything for you if you let me help." he said grabbing my hands, "I love you Josh and I'm sorry for what I did" I started to cry, he kissed my head and wiped my tears away. "it's okay baby, you know I would marry you in a heart beat if I could."

I giggled and he kissed me. "Come on we both need sleep" he took my hand and we went upstairs to our room. I changed into pajama's and he put in batman and stripped done to his boxer's. We cuddled up and fell asleep from watching the movie. "Babe" I heard Josh's groggily voice "hmm" "phone" I heard my phone I reached over and answered it. "Hello" I said with my voice all groggily.  "Hey, sis I was wondering if you and the guys would want to come over for dinner I'm inviting Chris's parents and Balz can invite his parents too if he wants..." "I can ask" I said as there was silence. "Look Axe I'm sorry that I freaked out, I thought I lost you... I can't lose another sibling..." I sighed "I know, I love you" "I love you too, bye" she hanged up, I put my phone on my nightstand and sighed while cuddling into Josh. "What did your sister want babe" "wanted to know if we want to go over there for dinner, the guys her, Chris, Chris's parents will be there. She said we can invite your parents. I never met your dad." "I know and he works a lot but mom told him that she approved of you" he kissed my cheek. "what time do we have to be over there" "6" "Okay, let's take a shower" he said getting up and dragging me off the bed. "But Balzzy I want to stay in bed with you" "Are you talking to me or the bear" "Haha you" he chuckled and kissed me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist. He held me up by my butt and he squeezed it. I gasped and he put his tongue in my mouth before I could shut it. He pulled off my pajama's and my bra and panties, we hoped in the shower and washed each other.

He pinned me against the wall and started kissing my neck. "Marry me" "Yes" "Really?" "No" "why not" "I don't know, I'm not ready for marriage." "I know I'm not but I want to spend the rest of my life with you. please" "I'll think about it" "Okay you do that" I smiled and hugged him. I got out and put a towel around my body, while he did the same. I went to the closet and picked something out. I pulled out a corset, ripped skinnies and red heels. I did my hair and make up and went down stairs. I saw Devin, Brandon, Ryan were ready. We went out to the car and drove to the house.

I saw my sister and she waved at me, "you guys can watch T.V. I guess" "DO you have any beer" Brandon asked. "She can't drink you idiot!" I said. The guys chuckled and Josh pulled me closer. "sis?" "I'm not drinking Chris bought it for tonight." I nod and she went to the kitchen again. The door bell rang and Chris got it. "Hey Mama Balz Hey Papa Balz" Chris introduced Layla to them and they cam into the living. I got off of Josh and hugged Mama Balz. "Dad this is Axelia" "I head some many great things about you Axelia, I'm sorry I wasn't there for the dinner" "It's alright I forgive you Papa Balz" he chuckled and hugged me. I felt like I belonged with them. Chris's parent's came and I meet them. Layla said that dinner was ready. We all ate and goofed around. After dinner my sister got the desert and gave us one piece. We all went to the living room Chris and Lala were in the kitchen doing dishes. "I'm gonna help with the dishes" I said Josh nod and I slide off of his lap.

I walked in the kitchen and started helping my sister with the dishes, "You don't have to help me either" she said as I shook my head. "It's the least I can do Layla" I muttered and she shook her head. "really it's okay." "Let me help please" she groaned and nodded, I asked her were stuff goes and as she kept cleaning. "You don't have to do dishes now" Ricky said. "Well if I don't do them now I will never get them done" he chuckled. We got done and I went to the living room. I sat on Josh's lap. Chris's mom and Layla started talking and asked what was going on.

Little bit Chris's parents left and the guys left too. Josh's parents, Josh and I were still talking when Layla left the room. "Well I think we should go" Mom said we nodded and hugged each other. They left and we waited in the living room for my sis. She came back out and saw us. "We'll be back tomorrow." I said kissing her cheek and we left. We got home and got to our room. "I love you Axe" "I love you too Josh" and fell asleep.