Confused About 'Love' (Phan)

~Part 13: Tyler's POV~

I kinda feel bad kissing Dan on the cheek like that earlier. He just looked so cute. I know it was wrong to do it, but I kinda don't care. Phil is a really nice guy and I have nothing against him, but if I knew Dan liked men I would have been with him now. He would have been mine. I'm just staring blankly at Dan's ceiling. His bed is really comfortable. I just wonder if it would be better if he were in it now....with me. No I don't even wonder if it would be better, I know it would be better if he were lying down next to me now. This feels so unfair right now. I deserve Dan more than Phil. What risks will I take to get to Dan.

Dan's POV:

I can't get this out of my head. The scene playing over and over like a broken record. Did I want him to kiss me on the cheek? No. What am I starting to think. Phil is who I love and only Phil. I really love him. 

"Hey, are you okay babe." Phil's soft arm moves under the back of my upper shoulders. He's so comfortable. 

I turn to face him and just hug him tightly,"I don't know Phil, but I do know that you make everything better." My face goes warm and I look up at him. He kisses my forehead and I feel safe. Everything is safe in his arms. Everything will be okay. 

I drift off into sleep slowly feeling cozy, warm, and safe.

***

I awaken from a night terror. I'm afraid. I don't want to wake Phil up because he looks so peacefully adorable in his sleep. I do get up however, to get a glass of water.

Holy shit this is scary. Walking down the dark hallway without Phil. I need to stop being such a wuss, I'm a grown man....kinda. As a walk into the kitchen I could have sworn I heard footsteps. It's probably my imagination right now. 

Scared shitless Tyler walks into the kitchen. He has a weird smug look on his face. 

"What are you doing up so late?" He asks me as he inches closer.

I back up and explain myself. "I had a night terror and I just needed a glass of water."

"You kinda look cute with your hair like that." He winks at me.

 I blush but then shake my head."Tyler, you and me are just friends. I'm not looking for anyone. I have a great boyfriend now."

"Dan, I know that you liked me kissing you on the cheek. Don't worry I won't tell, only if you'll let me again." He smiles indecently toward me.

"I suppose, if nobody gets hurt. But! you can't tell Phil about this." I make sure that we have a deal. I don't really mind him kissing me.

"So you really did like me kissing you. I bet I could do better this time Dan." He takes hold of my waist.

"Tyler I'm really not comfortable." I say that but I can't lie about me blushing intensely.

"I know I can see that. We'll talk tomorrow night okay?" He asks me.

"Okay." I sigh feeling terrible about the situation.