Kylo Ren/Ben Solo imagines

Personal Imagine Annie

I remembered the old times with ben, he was the love of my life.

I remember thinking nothing could take him away from me, because he loved me and only me. but men are easily seduced

In this case it was not by any woman, he was seduced by the dark side. I wasn't apart of anything, the resistance nor the first order but I did not support the first order. It had been years since han and leia sent him away and not too long after that we all lost the loving, caring, amazing boy who would put a smile on anyone's face. We all lost ben solo.

It was so hard as a teenager losing a best friend and a lover, and for a long time I blamed leia but as I grew, I matured to realize there was nothing she could have done, whether she didn't send him away or did he would still have became the person he is today, one way or another.

I walked back to the house since it was getting late. I stripped of my clothes and pored a hot bath. My family was away on business so I had the house to myself. We stayed on our home planet unlike quite a few, leia and han being an example. Han left and is back to his old ways and Leia is now fighting with the resistance still in hopes she can bring home her son

I guess it was hard staying in their old family home without Ben, not that I could blame them. Its even hard for me to pass their old home. I broke into it once just to see and remember all the old times. It was the hardest to see everything was still there in place. Bens room was the exact same, except for one thing that has haunted me ever since, a drawn picture of me that hung on his wall had disappeared.

I sat up for days wondering why he would have taken it, but then my memory ruined me even more because after he turned to the dark side before Leia and han left, the picture was still there.

Meaning ben had come back for it, I don't know when but he came back. Ever since then I had been waiting for his return, not fully convinced he would but that didn't stop me, it never did.

After my bath I wrapped a long white sheer rob around my body and made my way to the bedroom and stood in the same spot I did every night since I knew he once returned. I stared out the window and waited for my lover to come back for me.

Its so hard going each day thinking about him, its unhealthy and its taking a toll on my soul. I have met some amazing people who would make me happy but I haven't opened up to anyone. If I continued this way I would end up alone, but I couldn't bring myself to stop.

I sat down on the window sill and looked up at the moons. "come back to me ben" I cried. My eyes searched the grounds but nothing, as usual.

"Annie" I jumped up, almost falling out the window, but I grasped the wall. Behind me all along in my own room was Ben.

Tears soaked my face as I tried to grasp everything. "you're back"

His face matured so much, he was beautiful with Broad shoulders and strong arms. His lips formed into a small smile and that was all it took as I threw myself at him and embraced every part. "I never left you, I just never revealed myself" he said looking down at me

"you got so tall, I cant believe you have come back. I missed you ben" his eyes turned darker

"I have come back, but not as ben... ben is gone and will never come back. Sorry to disappoint" he turned around and paced around my bedroom.

"I love you" I spoke, feeling the words flow through me and him also. He turned around and before I could understand what was happening, his lips were on mine and his hands were traveling my body.

Our clothes laid on the ground and we were sharing our love on my bed. "I love you Annie" he moaned in my neck

I knew my words would be crucial so I had to say the right thing, I would accept the new ben if it was the only way to keep him in my life. I couldn't lose him again. "I love you, Kylo Ren."

He looked me in the eyes and searched them in desperation. "come back with me"

I smiled and nodded "I will go anywhere with you"

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