Kylo Ren/Ben Solo imagines

Imagine #34

He tore the room apart, screaming in agony from the loss he just went through, the loss of the only thing he genuinely cared for, (Y/n).

He threw the already cracked and broken items that filled her home and looked around at the mess he had created. She would be ashamed of him, just as everyone else was. He had ruined her childhood home out of anger and pain.

"I'm sorry," he cried out, looking at the empty bed just wishing he could place one last kiss on her warm lips. "I'm so sorry."

He opened the cabinet and pulled out the container of liquid (Y/n) had been saving for the day they got married. More pain filled his heart as he looked over the container, then in a quick motion pulled the cap off and started chugging the strong liquid.

In a matter of seconds the container was empty and Kylo was gripping onto the counter, trying to take down the liquor. He breathed out and looked over the mess again, wishing (Y/n) was there to scold him for what he has done.

She was always good with his tantrums, she somehow knew exactly how to sooth his soul with just a single touch, something he feared always, but loved at the same time. He was scared of how vulnerable he was around her, he never wanted to let anyone in but she broke his walls and he fell in love with her.

He always wondered even to this moment how she could love a monster like him? Did she take him on like a experiment? Seeing if she could make the ruthless monster into a loving man?

Kylo won't be able to see this, but (Y/n) fell in love with his beautiful inner soul, something no one else could see. He was never a charity case to her, she just loved a broken man and took him as he was, eventually mending his mental wounds with her tender love and kisses day by day.

He blinked a couple times, instantly feeling his head start spinning. "Kylo Ren," he looked up in his drunken state and his eyes found the most beautiful person he had ever seen, he saw his (Y/n), just standing in a pure white long dress.

She looked like an angel, she was his angel. "(Y/n)" he slurred, reaching his hand out to try and touch her, but he couldn't reach. His feet felt as if they were cemented to the floor, he couldn't go to her.

"Don't do this Ren," she whispered, her velvet voice soothing the pain in his heart and bringing a smile to his face, something that hadn't happened since her passing. "Don't ruin everything you have done, you made yourself into a man who cares, don't let that crash down."

"Come to me" he begged, reaching his arm out further

She shook her head and smiled slightly, "I can't."

"W-what?" he asked, feeling the pain return slowly. "(Y/n), come to me, please" he tried again, feeling that agonizing pain fill his heart and the anger pump through his veins.

"Don't let the good in you go, please... for me." she begged him.

Her glowing skin and small pain free smile was the last thing he seen before his vision faded.

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"(Y/n)" Kylo whispered, picking his head up and looking around the destroyed house. When he realized the night before was just his imagination mixing with the liquor he looked back down, letting his tears fall down his cheeks.

The pain was worse than the night before, and the more he thought about it the more the pain intensified.

But through his gasps for air from his sobs, he whispered out to the love of his life, who he didn't know was watching over him, but she was.

"I won't let you down; your light will live on through me, my angel."

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okay guys, sorry for not being active. i just went through the worst moment of my life, my longtime boyfriend of almost three and a half years broke it off and i totally lost myself, im not the happiest person right now but i still love to write so i will be continuing.

im praying that writing will help me get over this lol praying so damn hard.

btw sorry if the stuff i post is deopressing for a while, i am just writing what i feel. <3

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