Dark Dreams and Happy Minds

You

Your attention was amazing. It was what I had craved.

Your eyes, looking at me. It was wonderful.

That night you came and you held me. And we laughed.

But now I look back. Was it really me you wanted?

Or was it only my body? Was it only my time, only my attention that drew you in?

I gave you my everything. I talked to you through your pain.

But I think you were only in it for personal gain.
You wanted sex. That's it. Nothing else.
But I didn't give you what you wanted did I?

All I gave you was my heart.
All I gave you was my time.
All I gave you was a shoulder to lean on.
All I gave you was myself, open and caring.

But that wasn't enough. Oh no.
Because you kissed and you held her.
Even though she was dating someone.
She could give you what I couldn't.

I liked you so much.
I liked you so so much.

But I wasn't what you wanted.
I wasn't what you needed.

You used me.
And then you threw me away.

Thank you.
Thanks for breaking me some more.

But it's okay because you don't see me.
Or you pretend not to.
So you don't deal with your mess.
I'm left with it alone, and you're kissing someone else.