Blurbs of Thoughts

Blue Eyes

For months I've wondered what it would be like to call you mine
For weeks I've dreamed of how perfect we would be without her in the picture
For days I've thought of how perfectly my hand would fit into yours like the missing piece of a puzzle
For hours I've pondered over the thought of why you liked her better than me when we're so similar
For minutes I've daydreamed of everything we could be and should be
For seconds I found myself staring at your blue eyes, losing myself as I did

And then you opened your mouth, your weapon
You spouted the sweetest of sins, as I fell deeper into your trance
You told me I was everything, you told me you cared
You made me believe in every word you said

And then you crushed me, you destroyed me
"oh we're just good friends" you'd say, not knowing it was killing me as you did
maybe she's better and prettier and smarter and funnier
but maybe just maybe if you looked hard enough you'd find those things in me

For seconds, I wondered why I let you break me
For minutes i've daydreamed of how it could've been with us
For hours, I sat alone in my room listening to music that related to our situation
For days, I laid in bed without shutting my eyes so I wouldn't dream of us
For weeks, I witnessed the happiness you felt while you were around her
For months, I'd glimpse at your blue eyes and force myself to look away as I held back the tears