Blurbs of Thoughts

Words Untold

Deep inside lay the feelings I'm afraid to share

The thoughts I'm afraid to tell

The things I'm afraid to say

Deep inside lay everything you'd never learn

Everything I couldn't say

Everything that killed me, killed us

You never knew the thoughts I had about you

Like the way you made me feel butterflies when you smiled at me

Like the way you could turn my whole day around by say something sweet

Like the way you said I love you, with so much sincerity and passion

But the worst thing I could've done?

I pushed you away because my feelings and emotions became too strong

I lost control of my feelings

I lost my protective barrier, my walls

But in the end, I lost the worst thing of all

I lost you

I lost you because I was scared

Because I couldn't control me anymore

Because just like everyone else, I feared the unknown

And for that, I'll regret it for life

Not because of how much I hurt you

But because of how much I turned into everything I said I would never be

I lost love because of fear

And it was such a mistake

I didn't lose love, I lost my one love

My first love and most importantly, the one I still love

And it was my fault

All because of the feelings I never said, the emotions I never shared, and the words left untold....