Blurbs of Thoughts

galaxies

i did not dream of standing on the moon when i was a child, or drifting around in space. i could not see myself in such a position. i told my mom i wanted to be a doctor or a lawyer, and i was set, even after hearing the other kids in my kindergarten class speak about being astronauts. i knew that was not for me. yet here i am now, wishing to be nothing more than a speck floating around in the galaxy, trying to minimize the damage of what you did to me. i would give anything to be up in a gravity free zone, weightless, instead of being crushed by the burden bestowed upon me. you kissed me like you owned my lips, and maybe in that moment you did. with the intoxication heavy, and vodka on my breath, you felt the utmost amount of power, as i was completely in your grasp, unable to slip away and blend in with the stars. your fingers slipped into my shorts and for a second, i forgot who i was. i imagined myself far away, in a galaxy that was not this one. that was all i could do for i am not a rocket ship, able to blast away from everything that could ever cause me pain. you used that to your advantage in that moment, choosing to be the asteroid that crashed into my world and ruined it. you touched me like i was yours, but i never will be. i am not a star you can buy on some website as a gift. i am not a spacecraft you can fly whenever you like. yet maybe when you were young, you told the class you wanted to be an astronaut, and it didn't work out. so maybe, just maybe, you thought you could explore me, as i was the only uncharted galaxy within your reach. yet everyone knows that you may have discovered something new, but you destroyed it as soon as you laid hands on it.

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hi loves. i've been utterly inactive on this account and this book, but a recent commentator sparked my interest again. here's something old. if you're looking for more, my insta is xoxo.v.s
sending all my love and as much positivity as i can.
to the commentator, thanks for bringing back my spark.

xoxo, v.s