Alone ~R.S.L.~ #Wattys2016

05

"Open up, blond head!" A voice called from the door waking me from the best sleep I've ever had. I squinted my eyes seeing how Emily was tightly wrapped around me, giving me the hesitation to wake up.

I wanted to hold her tighter to me, maybe stay on bed for a little while, 10 minutes won't budge.

I looked at her features, smiling at her everything. Her beautiful flirty lashes, her cute cheeks, that had a dimple in each. Her pink lust full lips, and how they were always slightly parted. She really was an angel.

Her lashes  fluttered, revealing her dark, brown eyes. She smiled looking at me, half awake.

"Hey, " I mumbled grinning.

"Hey," she said snuggling closer to me.

"WAKE THE FUCK UP, SHUCK FACE."

Her eyes widened as her body jolted up and she stood by the bed. I looked at her, confusion taking over me.

"I can't be seen, Ross. I need to go," she whispered heading over to the balcony. I stood up, shaking my head at her. "Please stay, you look like you haven't eaten in weeks, and I need to get you breakfast. You can hide here. Nobody enters when the door is locked."

I saw her hesitated expression, making me frown slightly. She sighed, smiling weakly at me.

"I really do need food, Ross. But maybe at night?"

I nodded softly,  making her stand on the terrace. "Thank you for the clothes, honestly, thank you for everything. Especially considering me someone special, I heard your inner self talk in your sleep," she whispered grinning, making me blush.

"I can't wait to see you tonight, " I hushed, hugging her.

Those endless hugs, I'd be dying to get every day, all day.

I hesitantly kissed her boney shoulder, before she pulled away, making her way down the building in seconds. She moved her feet down the bricks, carful to look over her feet before she makes a false movement. Her blond hair jumped as she ran into the trees, waving once she got there.

How I would love to stay in her arms forever, not fearing a thing in this big world, running as free as her, into the free wild.

She looks so free, careless, wild on the outside. I didn't reach her inside, it's difficult.

The thoughts of her being emotionally closed, drives me insane. She is hiding a secret that is soon to be let out, whether it's to me from her lips, or to me from her heart.

Same, but different.

I moved my exhausted body inside, feeling the cold bite me. It was a windy day, mostly cloudy yet beautiful. Never bothering to change, I ran downstairs, feeling my stomach pinch from starvation.

The smile forced its way across my face as i got down, seeing everyone stuffing their face with food, mashed potatoes to be exact.

It was definitely a rare smile, one that i barely crack. Who knew waking up in the arms of a girl was a cure for my state yesterday?

She can seriously numb my sadness. Waking up next to her made me feel alive again. After my suicidal attempt, I realised that there's more to handle in life, more importantly growing up.

There's this tiny spark inside me that knew I shouldn't be giving up on myself, I've got a lot to do.

But then seeing the the reason on why u turned into a depressed monster, weakens me in a way. Looking at them giving me the usual dirty looks, hashing in a soft voice while my name stands out between their whispers, it all hurts.