He Got Me

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"This isn't easy to say... But, Tanner is in a major cuncusion. More so a coma. We dont know when she will be waking up or if she will be waking up. I'm sorry. I give you my prayers." He says

I just stand there with tears in my eyes.

"Can I at least see her?" I ask

He shakes his head yes and walks me to her room.

I see her. I see her laying there. Still as a rock. She has tubes going through her to help her breathe. I walk over to the side of the bed and sit in the chair. I slip my fingers into her fingers and lock them. Her hands are cold as ice. Her skin is pale just a little bit. I feel tears in my eyes. They begin to fall.

"Tanner, baby! I am so so sorry for this. If I hadn't got into that fight, you wouldn't have tried to pull my off and get hit by the other guy accendently. I'm sorry you are like this. I didn't mean for anything to happen to you and I promised you nothing would but I failed you. I failed you, Tanner. I broke a promise I made you. I don't deserve your love, your care, you attention, your affection. Nothing. Please wake up, baby. Please. I just want to hear your voice and know that you will be OK. I want to be able to see your smile, hear you laugh, your cute little laugh that makes me laugh and love you even more. I want to see your sparkling blue eyes and make me fall in love with you over and over and over again. I want to see you OK and happy again. I love you, baby. Just know that Tanner." I say as tears faf. "One last thing before I let others come in, please don't do this but if you want to go, then you can go. Once again, I love you baby." I say as I get up.

I walk into the waiting room with tears all down my face. I can tell I look horrible. Trey and Bentley walk over and give me a big each. Then her parents walk over. They both say everything will be OK. I told them that they should go talk to their baby girl. I wish that baby girl was still awake and happy as can be.

I decide to go home get some rest and come back in about 2 hours cause I don't want to leave her alone. She doesn't deserve any if this. I should be the one in the hospital not her. She didn't do anything.

****2 hours after being home*****

I hear my alarm go off. I get up and start packing. I want to be there when she wakes up. I can't get those words out of my head. "She may not wake up" why did the doctor have to say that?! I am finally done packing. I have my clothes, pillow, shoes, brush/tooth brush, tooth paste. I grab the keys to the car and I am on my way.

**at hospital**

I finally arrive to the hospital and I walk in. I ask what room she is in cause Trey told me they moved her. 5th floor room 528.

I reach the room. She hasn't moved since the last time I saw her. I make my way to the couch and set my stuff down. I also brought Tanner something cause the hospital clothes are ugly. I just want her to wake up. But I guess I'm asking for too much due to my past, huh. I just want my baby to know I love her and would do anything to keep her safe.