Ciel let me leave the room after sincerely apologizing. We now have a healthy relationship and he hasn't laid a finger on me since. What a happy ending....who am I kidding?
It's been almost a whole week since Ciel locked me in his room. I don't really leave this room unless Mey-rin needs help with chores. Only Mey-rin. I can no longer speak to any of the boys, other than Ciel. And if I'm lucky I'll be able to sneak away with talking to Sebastian.
My left eye is still bruised. Not as bad as when I had first gotten it. But it was still noticeable. Very noticeable. The cut on my eyebrow had healed a bit as well but there was a small scar. Nothing I couldn't hide.
Ciel hasn't beaten me, yet that is. But he continues to insult me. To mentally break me, my hopes, dreams, goals. They all seem so unreachable.
Ciel has gone to a business meeting today, it gives me a break from the stress he has been throwing on me lately.
Taking long strides toward the garden I rush to see Finny. Someone I had not seen in a long time. Before I could even think I had already began to run towards the garden. I needed to see him.
I finally reach the garden and seek the cheery blonde. I guess he saw me before I saw him. As soon as I had stepped out I was greeted by Finny. My arms moving faster than my current worries of Ciel I wrapped my arms around Finny. And before I knew it, I had began to sob into Finny's chest. He felt tense. Maybe it was because I took him by surprise, he was probably expecting an explanation on why he had not seen me in a whole week. He didn't bother wrapping his arms around me, I don't blame him his strength mixed with the fact that he was probably startled wouldn't mix well.
Wiping my tears away I look at him. "Where have you been?" Finny ask. "What happened to you?" "Did the young master do this to you!" He questioned examining your left eye that was still bruised.
I simply looked down at my feet. How could I explain this to him. Finny's hands carefully lifted my chin up. "It doesn't hurt." Was all I was able to say at that moment.
He didn't answer. Instead, he slowly learned in, without realizing my own movement my thought had not yet caught up to my actions, we where kissing.
I pulled away quickly my thoughts finally reaching me. The realization of what we had just down hit me. His eyes where full of hurt.
"I'm sorry!" In a flash he was gone. I attempted to reach him only to notice he was no where in site. I cursed at myself for letting him slip out so quickly.
Tears filled your eyes once again. My vision blurred. At this point they where tears of anger. Picking up the pace I bumped into a chest.
Red eyes darted to mine. Those red eye I knew so well.
Sebastian kneeled down to me. Lightly grasping my hands.
"(Y/n), please. You don't have to force yourself to put up with this."
With all of my will power I gave Sebastian a big smile.
"I'm fine. It doesn't hurt."
Sebastian got up, kissed your forehead and started walking away to continue what ever the hell he was doing in the first place. I wanted to stop him, I wanted to stop him. I wanted to go after him. I wanted him to hold me tight. To tell me it's okay. To tell me it's fine. I wanted to tell him how much I really love him.
I can't blame him though, I said I'm fine. He has all rights to believe that I'm fine.
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I sat in Ciel's room. Ciel had started yelling at me about 40 minutes ago.
'When does he get exhausted for all this yelling'
I glanced down at the bracelet he had gotten me about a week ago. It had stopped looking like a bracelet awhile ago, it started taking a look more like shackles holding me down.
"Your cheating on me. Aren't you." Ciel glared daggers at me. My eyes widen at that. If anyone where to cheat I would expect it to be Ciel.
The image of Finny kissing me flashed into my head, and a guilty feeling drowned out the hate I held. He lost his family and scared off his cousin. It would only make sense for him to need someone. No one ever ask how he feels.
"No. I'm not cheating on you! I promise! I would never." Ciel didn't seem to believe you. If anything he could probably see how guilty you looked. But what kinda excuse is that to beat me? To hurt me!
"Stop lying to me (Y/n). Why won't you just tell me how you feel?" His voice was louder than last time.
"I hate you!" The words spilled out of my mouth. Ciel was obviously taken back by this. He looked down his long bangs covering his beautiful blue eye.
A dark chuckle was heard from under his breath. He slowly brought his head back up and gripped your shoulders.
"I know you love me deep inside. Your just caught up in Sebastian's lie." His grip only got tighter. He looked back up to you. His blue eye looked different.
I couldn't manage to say anything. "Come on, say it. Say, I love you" He pushed me down onto the bed. "Say I love you. (Y/n)! Say I love you!" He was now on top of me. My heart was beating fast.
"N-no. What are you doing? Stop it! Stop!" I cried tears streaming down my face. Ciel's face was inches from yours.
"You useless stupid maid! Why won't you except my love. No one will ever love you. Your lucky if they even want to talk to you. You're just another mistake." Ciel's words made you freeze in place.
Mistake....?
No one will ever love me?
Is he right? He is....he is right? No one will ever love me? My own mother and father couldn't bare with me. Why should others?
Ciel slowly got off of you and exited out of the room.
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Wow, this was my fastest update! >3<
I also just wanna say thank you all so much!!!! Thank you for getting me all these views it really means a lot to me! ♡
Me: Baka-chan!
Ciel: what? I don't have time for this.
Me: XD wait why did you answer the that. I said Baka-chan.
Ciel: ...........still don't know what that means.....
Me: >^< go watch anime.
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