I stretched my fingers into the soft pillow my head lied on. Silent tears slipping out of my eyes.
It almost seemed like a dream. Our moment. That kiss, those feelings. It had been a week of the sweetest love I could imagine. Or at least it was until today.
I wiped away more tears that feel no matter how much I tried to stop them.
"You disgusting mistake. How long has this been going on?"
"After all the love I gave you. You still go off and betray me?"
"No one will love a disgusting thing like you. Good luck finding someone who loves you like I do."
A hug. A simple hug. Ciel had walked in on Sebastian giving you a simple hug. And that was all it took for Ciel to go crazy.
Grabbing a fistful of my hair he dragged me into his room to continue yelling at me.
Once he had let go of my hair he didn't touch me but his words cut deep inside me.
"I want to die....." I mumbled under my breath. It had been four days of being locked here...again. Four days of the same thing on repeat.
Waking up. Sleeping. Waking up. Sleeping.
Ciel then interrupted my thoughts. Slamming the door open he looked furious. His face a bright red as he let out a growl. It was obvious Ciel wasn't having a great day. Afraid to ask I hid my face in the pillow my head rested on.
Ciel groaned in annoyance grabbing the pillow and throwing it across the room. "Get up." Ciel demanded his tone was harsh in such a way which made this situation even scarier.
I slid out of the bed and stood up my legs shaking slightly. Tears soaking my face. I raised my hands up to wipe away tears that continued to fall.
"Y-you're such a-! Such a-! ....." Ciel sighed in defeat. "You're such a child..." Ciel looked away in shame his head hung low. And a guilty look replaced his enraged features.
I looked up in surprise. "You follow my orders like a child. You never call me out on my mistakes.. and you cry like a child who was just scolded ...please (Y/n), remind me what I'm doing when I treat you like this..."
"Let's go get you something to eat shall we?"
I looked up at Ciel in surprise and nodded happily. Even if deep inside I was screaming and wanting to run far far away.
•*•*•*•*Time skip
I walked around the garden holding Ciel's hand in mine. It was a surprisingly lovely day. The sun shining brightly. Ciel seemed to be a little more at peace. He no longer looked stressed.
I silently begged that this would never end. This feeling of being at peace... All while stilling being at war with yourself.
Part of you wanted to run far far away from Ciel. To leave all of the pain far behind. While the other part still had hope. A lot of it too, and these moment of peace continue to fuel that hope.
"....(Y/n)...."Ciel spoke softly as he slowly kneeled down to the ground. He smiled softly. Still holding my hand he planted a soft kiss on my hand. He then reached into the pocket of his shorts and pulled out a ring.
"D-don't think of this as a proposal... but (Y/n)....when I'm around you I can't help but to act so....so.. different. You make me feel different. I've never felt this way about anyone before." Ciel's face was a bright red as he continued.
"(Y/n) when your around me my heart beats faster. I get all giddy and flustered. I try to contain it but...sometimes it comes out rather violent....." Ciel's eyes dart away as the word violent slips out of his pale lips.
