I lied breathlessly on the bed. Trying my hardest to clear my thoughts. He wouldn't actually hurt me in, that type of way right?
Time skip....
I woke up earlier than usual today, I'm really worried about Finny. He left without saying another word. I slowly sat myself up. Or at least, I tried to.
As I moved away something was hugging my arm. Ciel. As much as you hated to admit it, he looked really cute. I decided that Finny could wait and continued to lay next to Ciel. I really wouldn't want to wake him up. He might get mad.
I awkwardly listened to Ciel's breathing having nothing else to really do. It almost felt as if I where waiting for him to stop breathing. I shook my head trying to get the thought out of my head. But I only thought of more tragedies that could happen. It was starting to become fun. Thinking of ways to get my revenge. Until I saw a pair of red eyes looking down at me. Snapping me back into reality, I realized what I had be thinking, and it didn't feel right.
"Sebastian...what the hell are you doing in here?" He didn't reply instead he kneeled by me slightly lifting my chin. I blushed a deep red.
"It's a bad habit to watch people sleep if I may add..." I mumbled looking away my eyes darting around the room. Anywhere to avoid eye contact.
Sebastian let out a dark chuckle, bringing his face closer to mine. Panic. My heart beat faster. What if Ciel woke up and saw this. Ciel wouldn't like this. Ciel's going to be mad.
I pulled away which was hard to manage, since, well Ciel still hadn't loosed his grip on my arm which restrict some movement.
"What has he been doing to you?" Was all Sebastian said before exiting the room.
Leaving you to think....
What has he been doing to me? I can't even look Ciel in the eye without feeling a wave of fear.
This isn't love is it? Will everyone else treat me like this? Would anyone even want me? I could already tell this was unhealthy but I couldn't help it, I felt as though Ciel was the only one who would really love me.
I didn't sleep at all. Instead I watched the dim lighting of the room spread and change into a soft warm light. The door opened once again to reveal those infamous red eye I couldn't forget.
"It's time to get up"
>Time Skip<
I sat patiently in Ciel's study as he finished some paperwork. I haven't had time to go clear things up with Sebastian....or Finny. Ciel hasn't let me leave, not even for breakfast. Tears pricked at my eyes remembering what he had said when you asked if you could go get breakfast,"Your fat enough already. If anything you could afford to lose some weight."
I refused to let those tears fall. Instead I stayed calm and decided it was time I leave.
"Ciel, I think it's time I leave." I spoke sternly making sure my voice didn't crack half way through. Ciel looked up at you surprised but it only lasted for less than a second. He quickly looked back down to his paper work and continued doing his work.
I slowly got up from the chair I was sitting on, watching for any sudden movements from Ciel. Turning to leave I hear Ciel mumble something, "if you know what is best for you, you'd better sit down." I turn to see Ciel casually take a sip of tea.
I made my way to the door before feeling something grasp my wrist, pulling me back. "Let go!" I yelled a bit louder than I had originally intended. Then I felt the impact of my body hitting the floor.
"Don't you dare raise your voice like that! Your obnoxious voice is going to give me a migraine!" He screamed at me before kicking my stomach. I tired to get away by moving back as quickly as possible in a failed attempt to avoid anymore hits only to have my back collied with the wooden desk.
That's when I really messed up. I had hit the desk causing Ciel's tea to spill all over his paperwork. Ciel's eye was filled with anger.
He stormed over to me. Repeatedly kicking me. I used my arms to block most of it but it was still bad. Tears spilled from my eyes unable to handle this pain.
"Your useless! Your just a mistake! Your a stupid girl who cannot even follow the simplest of task!" He yelled grabbing the spilled teacup off the table and throwing it at me. I let out a small scream as the shattered glass cut my arms. Seeing as Ciel was completely outraged I figured it'd be useless to try to talk some sense into him. He grabbed a book of his desk an throw it at me.
He then exited the room leaving me sitting alone with bruises and cuts.
My arms where cut from the damned tea cup and the book at Ciel had thrown at me had hit my head, I assume it was the corner that hit my head judging by the blood that dripped off it. My arms and legs where covered in bruises. My stomach had the largest bruise, right in the center.
I don't want to live on like this. I don't want to live at all. Tears streamed down my face.
"(Y/n), I'm here to clean your wounds, as usual..." Sebastian's soothing voice was soft but I couldn't help but I flinch. Sebastian kneeled down beside me wiping away the blood examining the damage. Cleaning the cuts and carefully removing any glass that had dug it's self in my arm.
"You know it's only going to get worse. (Y/n) why won't you listen to me, you know I can treat you better. I can protect you....-" Sebastian continued blabbing on but I couldn't think straight.
"-I'll be here for you...I love you..." This really knocked me out from my current state of mind. Sebastian then held my hand helping me. My legs wobbled and I felt dizzy. Sebastian sighed and picked my up bridal style carrying me back to Ciel's room, or what I like to call "the cage". I hugged Sebastian hoping that this moment would last longer. But that could never happen. We eventually made it back to "the cage" and I had to let go.
"Thank you...." I mumbled under my breath. I wanted to beg him to stay, just for a little at least. Just a reminder that there was still hope. Something to make me believe it was over yet.
I lied down on the bed and waited...waited for Ciel to come in and make me feel useless. I let the last of my tears slip out and then buried my face inside a pillow trying to sleep away the pain.
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I'm sorry if these updates seem like they take forever!!!! I really need to get better at managing that.
Anyways...I hope you like the new chapter!!! :) sorry if there is a lot of spelling mistakes ;-;
Me: rawr.
Ciel: no. Stop this. I do not have time to deal with your nonsense.
Me: I almost have my new book out! There you can request stories, give me ideas, and read extra info on this story! Things like, why did I make this? When will the last chapter be? And also special chapters!
Ciel: no one cares -_-'
Sebastian: may I request that (Y/n) falls in love with me?
Me: idk maybe :3
Ciel: no he cannot! I forbid you to do so Sebastian! This is an order!
Me: oh snap
