"I forgive you" burying my face deeper into Ciel's shoulder I closed my eyes enjoy this moment. Even if a moment like this would seem meaningless to someone else it meant the world to you. Reluctantly pulling alway you planted a small kiss onto Ciel's cheek. A light almost unnoticeable blush dusted his cheeks.
A small smile edged onto his lips. "I love you so much, (Y/n), you're my inspiration, my light, my angel. Please don't ever leave me...."
Thinking about it for a moment you nodded yes despite already having second thoughts about this.
'Maybe, I can change him....maybe I can cure him'
"I love you, Ciel, I love you more that words can express." Although the words smoothly escaped my lips I couldn't help but to cringe at them. They seemed so artificial. But I know I love him, so why?
"Will you spend the night in my room again?" Ciel's voice was hushed amd his eyes seemed go lightly glace away from mine.
Even with uncertainty I smiled and nodded.
"Um, if I maybe excused, I still have chores to finish with Mey-rin..." I smile sheepishly while speaking slightly looking away.
"O-oh I mean, of course. I have work to finish up here too." His lips twisted into the smallest smile.
It felt as though my heart skipped a beat. He looked so innocent at that moment. As I left the room I shook my head.
It can't be this way.
~♤☆time skip☆♤~
Looping my arms around Ciel I burried my face into his back. It felt odd to be so close to him again.
Ciel, already fast asleep had no reaction to my affection. A part of me wished he would've stayed up to cuddle and talk, but there was always the possibility that it would lead to an argument.
"I love you Ciel" smiling softly I attempted to do the same. But my mind continued to go wild.
Multiple thoughts interrupted me.
'Does Ciel ever mean to hurt me?' 'Why does he hurt me' 'Maybe stress?'
Removing my arms from his waist I lifted my arm out reaching to the ceiling. With my other hands I traced over an older bruise. It was faded out now. Almost invisible.
Tossed around in bed after that unable to find a suitable spot for myself. Eventually I turned myself to face away from Ciel.
Running my fingers through my hair I stopped as my finger tips reached the back of my head. Curling my fingers back I grabbed a fistful of my hair, the same way Ciel had done in the past. With out pulling it you released your hair.
Maybe it was just the fact that it was my hair, but honestly nothing about that seemed like a way to release stress. A quick thought ran through my mind of pulling my hair, immediately ignore that thought I burried my face into my pillow.
"Y/n? Are you still awake?"
I turned to be face to face with Ciel.
"I can't seem to fall asleep I guess..." a light smile formed onto my lips. Staring into his eye I noticed he was keeping his right eye closed.
He lightly smiled back cupping my cheek.
'He doesn't know that I akready kbow about his contract with Sebastion.. "
"Ciel....you don't need to...."
'Would telling Ciel I already know lead to move problems?'
"I don't need to what" his voice was so faint you could tell he was on the verge of falling back to sleep. Not that you could blame him, he was so young and already running his own company.
"You don't need to stay up with me, I know you must be tired, and your work is important."
"(Y/n), I know I've treated you horribly in the past, and I know it may be impossible for you to ever forgive me but please. I love yoy, and from now on I will always put you before work."
"Ciel-"
"I've lost a lot in my life. I know I can't control the world, and I can't contol how you feel. I don't have anyone to live for or to die for, before you, Elizabeth was the only person I had, but now, I have you. And I feel as though I can trust you, and love you more."
"Ciel, I love you too"
"I haven't had someone like you in so long. And after my parents, well, I haven't felt emotions like this for anyone... I love you so much"
You could make out a small smile on his face through the dim moonlight creeping through the curtains.
"Tomorrow, can we just be together? Maybe go out on a walk?"
"Of course love"
And with those last words you could feel yourself a little more at peace. Still, even with your eyes clothes and your hands holding onto Ciel's, something deep inside you told you this wouldn't be the end of all this madness.
But the warmth between the two of you and the silky blankets lulled you to sleep.
••••••
Sorry! sorry! sorry!
I literally can't say sorry enough!
These updates are taking so long. Not even for a good reason. Just me being lazy af. Im sorry if it ever looks like I've given up on writing. I won't I promise, and if I do I would be sure to tell you.
I'm going to fix up some chapters, when I get Chapter Twenty Im thinking about redoing some of the first few chapters.
Anyways...omg wut? Author actually uploaded? Wut?
Lolololol Im really sick right now so Im not at school. And I guess thats is giving me a reason to write more
Feel free to correct any grammar mistake💮🐰
Sebastian: seems like the author is going to pull one of her too lazy to write moments again
Ciel: like always. It feels like it's already been a year with out any real updates
Me: If you guys keep talking shit Im gonna make sure none of you get (Y/n)
Finny: does this mean I could maybe go on a fancy date with (y/n)
Me: Yoosung my son is that you?
Finny: wut ;3;
Sebastion: I think the correct diagnosis for author is she is "Mystic Messenger Trash"
Ciel: she still hasn't gotten ocer that stupid game?
Sebastian: it appears so
💮i might unpublish this piece if I see to many mistakes!
💮UPDATE!! Wed May 3 11:32 PM
Please comment if there is a mistake where words keep repeating! Or if it seems like parts are missing!
Sorry for the on and off publishing and unpublishing!
