Perfect and imperfect

Explanation

Well I guess I just realized I never explained what happened so here it goes. Lets flash back to my fight with Izzy so you all can see why I'm mad.

"Delaney wait!" Izzy screamed.

"What?" I scoffed at her, just wanting to get away.

"We are the only two people left here! Can you stop acting like you hate me and talk for a second?"

"One," I count then turn away but she grabbed my arm and turned me to face her. Her face was just inches from mine and I stared into her eyes. She pulled me out of my trance saying, "You know that isn't what I meant."

"I don't care what you meant! I don't care about you! I refuse to anymore! Shouldn't you get away from garbage like me?"

"Garbage? Is that why your pushing me away? Is someone being mean to you?"

"Why would I push you away if someone else was being mean? There is no logic there!"

"This is all my fault, you hate me and it's all my fault! It's because of what happened with Nick and I'm sorry!"

"Whatever! Can you leave me alone now?" I screamed and turned to leave again.

"Can you stop walking away from me and listen? I'm trying to figure something out!" Now she screamed.

"What is there to figure out? There isn't anything!"

"I need to figure out why you hate me! What did I do that was worse than Nick?"

"It's nothing!" I lied.

"Well clearly it's not because you hate my guts because of it! Stop being such a stuck up liar!"

"Why can't you just leave me alone? What did I do to deserve this harassment?"

"Harassment? I'm harassing you now am I? You've driven me insane for over a month and for no reason! Your being a real jerk you know! Your acting so stupid!"

"I'm acting stupid! Me? Please! You flipping kissed me!"

"Well I'd rather kiss you then possibly get raped by Nick! Don't be so overdramatic! I had to stop him somehow!"

"Izzy! You used me! You kissed me! You said you loved me and then called all of that unbelievable garbage! Do you really think I'd just be okay after all of that?"

"Why wouldn't you be? I mean, I know you like someone else but given the circumstances I had to get out of there! You shouldn't have even thought twice about it you stupid, overdramatic, little girl!"

"Little girl? Is that supposed to offended me? You are a girl too you know!"

"Is this really all because I kissed you? Your lesbian so shouldn't you be fine getting kissed by a girl?"

"You are too! Do you just want anyone out of the blue to just come up and kiss you? No! I highly doubt that!" Only thing was I wish she would've just randomly kissed me.

"Who said I was lesbian?" She screamed.

Now I was silent. I was staring at her to confused to speak. When I did I wasn't yelling anymore. "You did. You told me."

"What? I told you? When? When there was my ex trying to do who knows what to us? Delaney I had to do something to  get him to go away. It's just so awkward to kiss your friend and then just recover from that so I told you I was gay." She wasn't yelling, but still spoke madly.

"So you probably told me the biggest lie you could've then." I speak with tears forming in my eyes.

"This is really all because someone kissed you?" She almost laughed when she said it.

"Not someone kissed me. You kissed me. You aren't just anyone. I swear you have messed with my emotions for far to long and I'm done!" I said and just walked away.

My mom picked me up and that was the last time I spoke to Izzy. She used me, and I don't care what her motives were because she still did it, she kissed me, she gave me hope that we could have a relationship, and then she lied. She lied about it all. She even lied about liking girls. I hate her. I keep telling myself I hate her because of this.

But I think I'm lying.

Again.